Venting guilt for my family

[kat_]

i'm trapped and i know i'm going to end it all eventually, most likely in the near future. i would have done it already but i'm so scared of doing that to my family. they've been trying so hard to get me better but nothing has ever worked and i don't think it ever will. they don't deserve this burden and i don't deserve to be forced to suffer like this.
i just can't handle the thought of my dog trying to lick my lifeless body awake or my sister reading my note or anything that might happen after i'm gone