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CuriousAboutThis
Uncertainty in life uncertainty for the next life
- Dec 30, 2018
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Guilt and Shame,
It is what gives me all the pain,
Yeah, we call that craziness,
I know again that word doesn't mean anything,
To me the Word Ashley means everything,
It is more important than the word craziness,
I didn't know that the precognition dream,
Of her getting raped was a real precognition,
Again I thought it was me,
Or nothing but a lucid dream and or nightmare,
I'm sorry I failed you Ashley,
I didn't know and no I'm not play acting,
Sure freedom of speech I respect that,
But I truly didn't know,
That is why I am afraid that I may never get your name and number again or keep deleting it,
Because who would've believed me,
"Dreams aren't real",
Says the one who doesn't have precognition,
Which I think I have lost mine but I really didn't know,
I'm sorry Ashley,
I failed you,
I couldn't protect you like a boyfriend should,
Like a man I wanted to be,
The reality is too upsetting to me,
"How can you live with yourself"
I have to otherwise what is worth living for?
A world without you Ashley is a world not worth living for,
I know that is one of the few many reasons why I attempted suicide not just because of
What we did to each other is that I failed to,
Stop it from happening.
It is what gives me all the pain,
Yeah, we call that craziness,
I know again that word doesn't mean anything,
To me the Word Ashley means everything,
It is more important than the word craziness,
I didn't know that the precognition dream,
Of her getting raped was a real precognition,
Again I thought it was me,
Or nothing but a lucid dream and or nightmare,
I'm sorry I failed you Ashley,
I didn't know and no I'm not play acting,
Sure freedom of speech I respect that,
But I truly didn't know,
That is why I am afraid that I may never get your name and number again or keep deleting it,
Because who would've believed me,
"Dreams aren't real",
Says the one who doesn't have precognition,
Which I think I have lost mine but I really didn't know,
I'm sorry Ashley,
I failed you,
I couldn't protect you like a boyfriend should,
Like a man I wanted to be,
The reality is too upsetting to me,
"How can you live with yourself"
I have to otherwise what is worth living for?
A world without you Ashley is a world not worth living for,
I know that is one of the few many reasons why I attempted suicide not just because of
What we did to each other is that I failed to,
Stop it from happening.
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