Rue89
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- Feb 10, 2020
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Everyday this week I've planned to ctb, but something, mostly the weather, has prevented it. I've basically decided to prepare for ctb everyday until I'm finally able to get out of the house early morning to do it.
My mom keeps talking about plans, mostly little things like what we're having for dinner the next day, etc, but also bigger things like our upcoming vacation and the dogsitting job she got me for next weekend that I didn't know how to say no to. So everytime she mentions these, even the small things, I can't help but feel a little guilty. I mean the dogsitting isn't that big of a deal. They're my mom's friends and they were going to board their dog somewhere until my mom mentioned that I could probably take care of it without asking me first, so they can just do that instead. But I still feel guilty. I know there will always be something "planned" that I'll mess up with my ctb, so I shouldn't let that get in the way. I just wish I knew how to get over it so I don't have to die with that guilt too.
My mom keeps talking about plans, mostly little things like what we're having for dinner the next day, etc, but also bigger things like our upcoming vacation and the dogsitting job she got me for next weekend that I didn't know how to say no to. So everytime she mentions these, even the small things, I can't help but feel a little guilty. I mean the dogsitting isn't that big of a deal. They're my mom's friends and they were going to board their dog somewhere until my mom mentioned that I could probably take care of it without asking me first, so they can just do that instead. But I still feel guilty. I know there will always be something "planned" that I'll mess up with my ctb, so I shouldn't let that get in the way. I just wish I knew how to get over it so I don't have to die with that guilt too.