Fly🦋
One day I'll be with the stars sleeping forever.
- Dec 30, 2019
- 59
I remember when I was a little girl. I tear up just at the thought, jesus. I was so happy, so carefree, so oblivious. Nothing could touch me, all the evil was kept far abay, evil I couldn't even phantom. My parents were my knights in shining armor and had wonderful childhood friendships. However, I grew the fuck up I suppose. I'm constantly in a morbid mood. The only reason i'm still here to this day is because of my religion that im slowly starting to lose grip of just by being on this site and my "habit" I indulge in constantly. I'm a user. Of nothing too crazy but that's really only because i haven't had the opportunity. I do the occasional xans and a shit ton of marijuana and shrooms (wanna try lsd and that cactus shit or whatever one day). These substances and my baby sister is the only thing that keeps me going. We have a huge age gap but she feels almost like a child to me. She reminds me of my happy days and everytime i look at her i remember me holding her in the hospital. She is absolutely wonderful, she even said she would be my valentine so of course i cant ctb until after my date lmao. However this makes me feel ungrateful and highly selfish to want to end my life when i should have all that I need. This also makes me feel like i'm a bad christian which I probably am anyways considering I indulge in illegal substances and prefer a specific gender but I just felt like writing something yk? I am working on a plan which I'll probably post later under the prefix method but this is all I suppose.