Venting Got my bottles today.

[sully]

Hey, it's me again.

I got my 2 bottles of N.
i don't WANNA do them but I don't even know how horrible I'd feel if I didn't have these two bottles. So, god bless D for doing this for us.. for people like myself. And where I'm originnally from (I live in EU now) there is not even AS availible! That's horrific.

I just can't imagine what it would feel like not to have these 2 bottles next to me. I don't know what I'd do. There is SN option but it is still a little more complicated than N.

Maybe this tought will be weird for many but ultimately I also feel just angry. At this illness. And by doing N I will not let it get me. Well, at least there is some motivation that I could find for myself. Sad, I know. But there is what there is. Even if it's just a matter of days for me I will try to stick for a little longer before I do it.

Also I'd never expect of myself to learn crypto mails and currency in a matter of days and organize delivery when could be potentially stopped by customs or my family. Also thanks to anyone who helped me here with names like n, d, etc… I would never do it on my own. In a week or so! And at least I have these two bottles. It was the whole crypto adventure.

Weird message I know but I'm trying to get positivity where I can. Glad I've found this place.

 

[HopelessFight]

I just can't imagine what it would feel like not to have these 2 bottles next to me. I don't know what I'd do.

Well, just think of yesterday :)

Good to hear you've received the bottles without issues.

 

[sully]

Well, just think of yesterday :)

Good to hear you've received the bottles without issues.

Yes, still can't believe it

 

[GreenMile]

Those bottles make a world of difference to me: they've change everything just because I have control now. There's always risk, but at least it's minimized this way.

For me, I don't think there's anything more natural than feeling anger. I'm angry with the situation I'm in. I don't think there will be an ideal time to go, it's more about weighing the options of life and death. I'm in the middle of writing some emails and the wording has to be right which is a lengthy process. When they're done I'm going which will probably be Sunday evening.

 

[sully]

Yeah

Those bottles make a world of difference to me: they've change everything just because I have control now. There's always risk, but at least it's minimized this way.

For me, I don't think there's anything more natural than feeling anger. I'm angry with the situation I'm in. I don't think there will be an ideal time to go, it's more about weighing the options of life and death. I'm in the middle of writing some emails and the wording has to be right which is a lengthy process. When they're done I'm going which will probably be Sunday evening.

Yeah, like situation is still awful but at least I can choose to exit it , even in such a way…

 

[burntoutfrontliner]

Hey, it's me again.

I got my 2 bottles of N.
i don't WANNA do them but I don't even know how horrible I'd feel if I didn't have these two bottles. So, god bless D for doing this for us.. for people like myself. And where I'm originnally from (I live in EU now) there is not even AS availible! That's horrific.

I just can't imagine what it would feel like not to have these 2 bottles next to me. I don't know what I'd do. There is SN option but it is still a little more complicated than N.

Maybe this tought will be weird for many but ultimately I also feel just angry. At this illness. And by doing N I will not let it get me. Well, at least there is some motivation that I could find for myself. Sad, I know. But there is what there is. Even if it's just a matter of days for me I will try to stick for a little longer before I do it.

Also I'd never expect of myself to learn crypto mails and currency in a matter of days and organize delivery when could be potentially stopped by customs or my family. Also thanks to anyone who helped me here with names like n, d, etc… I would never do it on my own. In a week or so! And at least I have these two bottles. It was the whole crypto adventure.

Weird message I know but I'm trying to get positivity where I can. Glad I've found this place.

Can you help me with the d name. I tried to so hard the other night. Live alone so no risk finding. Did a foolproof method I found to the T. Should've went straight out. Instead now, it's like 2-3 days later, and I'm still here, except staying dizzy, headache, and can't walk well. Ataxia is no fun. I have a .9mm but for some reason can't overcome SI and pull trigger. Whereas drinking something? No big deal

 

[Kennish]

Can you help me with the d name. I tried to so hard the other night. Live alone so no risk finding. Did a foolproof method I found to the T. Should've went straight out. Instead now, it's like 2-3 days later, and I'm still here, except staying dizzy, headache, and can't walk well. Ataxia is no fun. I have a .9mm but for some reason can't overcome SI and pull trigger. Whereas drinking something? No big deal

Hi can you help me with understanding what "T" and "SI" means?

 

[Murakami'sCat]

Congrats! I am happy for you. I have food grade Sn but I'm pretty sure it's not 99% and would prefer N. I have a response from A but people are saying D is better now so I am getting anxious over to choose for this because I don't want to lose the money.