Got dumped last week

[erehbus]

The last few months I had been able to get out of this website. I was on Seroquel, which was working very well. Had been able to occasionaly hit the gym, work was looking up, everything was fine.
Then talked with my (now) ex- last week, and she said she couldn't do it anymore. She loved me, but was no longer in love with me. Said it had been that way for some time but she was worried I would off myself if she broke up with me. I told her I wouldn't - and now I am torn between a promise which could devastate her life if broken and my newly returned suicidal urges - my SN has been ready since October.

Just needed to get this off my chest.

 

[OreoWellington]

You don't owe her anything. She was the one who broke up with YOU and broke her commitment to you. So why should you honor any "promises" either? CTB is for YOU, for YOUR peace of mind. Not HERS, just so she can feel "better and easier" about breaking up with you.

 

[imstillhungry]

I'm sorry to hear this. It's such a shame things were looking up for you and now this brought you down again. I hope you can turn things around again and perhaps find someone new one day.
On the other hand if you truly want to ctb, I wouldn't let your ex stop you. I know my ex will be sad at first but he has a great support system in place and will move on with his life easily and quickly. But even if he didn't, why should I continue to deal with the pain of being here and suffering every day, just to make him feel better? Fuck that. I've been selfless all my life and it got me nowhere. It's finally time to put myself first.
Good luck whatever you decide

 

[ThingWithFeathers]

I can feel how you are feeling. But let's not call it "getting dumped". You aren't a thing or POS that can be thrown around. Maybe this happened for something good so that you can find a better and more consistent partner, someone who can live a more fulfilling life with you together. Let's not make this the reason to CTB. From your other posts I see you are an otherwise bright guy with a promising life. Time to move on and forget what's gone.