Goodbye thread ,SN

[Quinton Coldwater]

Gonna ctb in a few hours.First off I'd like to thank everyone in this community I was considering stabbing myself before I found this forum but atleast with SN I can die atleast less gruesomely

Hopefully this goodbye thread is my last as I'm not sure if y'all remember but I tried using partial hanging method in 2023 but failed.Hopefully with SN it'll work this time.

I really tried my best to continue living but I can't keep lying to myself saying things will get better when I know they won't.I don't even care about anything anymore ,can't watch movies or play games.Just watch YouTube and rot away in bed.

I'm just not cut out for this world.I would like to say I'll miss my family but I won't ,they never treated me well for most of my life and only began caring when I was far too gone when I tried overdosing on sleeping pills.And I don't really have friends in my close live that I'll say I'll miss or will miss me cause most ppl I considered a friend in my life hated me except maybe 1 or 2 of my so called friends.

I don't have many regrets besides maybe not being loved by anyone.I would've liked to know what love felt like before I leave this realm.Im atheist so I don't really believe in heaven or hell either ,I just wanna sleep forever and cease existing.

Either way I'm not completely a victim I've done my fair share of abhorrent things in my lifetime I'm not without blame ,I'm sorry to everyone I've wronged.

Gonna update y'all on the protocol an hour or 2 before I drink SN


I guess the only thing I'll miss is my second favourite show of all time called "The Fosters" it taught me what it meant to be a family ,a family that doesn't give up on each other ,that doesn't ostracize one child ,a family that sticks together through thick and thin.I will forever love that show with all my heart along with my fav show of all time Mr Robot

For now gonna listen to my fav song future jr suburbia blue ,I first head it from the fosters




I'll also be listening to the Weeknd ,Without a warning.Such a banger album glad I had the privilege of listening to it before I kicked the bucket.




Imma ctb in a hotel ,I'm already in it rn but ppl are moving around a lot rn so I'll drink the SN later and wait for things to pipe down for now.Its currently 14:28 where I'm at.Hopefully all will go to plan I'll update y'all under this thread

Edit: if I somehow survive I'll come back Tommorow and notify y'all just like how I notified y'all of failed partial last time,if I don't notify y'all safe to say I have caught the bus.
My stomach is a bit sore I been having to go to the toilet a lot today maybe I shouldn't have eaten a lot yesterday.I also tried force vomiting 8 times by putting my hands in my mouth near my throat that usually works but I guess my food was digested cause I only vomited drops of water each time ,but my stomach is still making me go to poop!?
Anyway I added my protocol in this thread

 

[SeyOShake]

Wherever you're heading, I hope peace is waiting there to take you by the hand.

 

[daydrey]

I'll join you soon

 

[justcallmeJ]

save travels <3

 

[Sbetto]

I hope that you can found the peace from your suffering, my friend

 

[Valhala]

Gonna ctb in a few hours.First off I'd like to thank everyone in this community I was considering stabbing myself before I found this forum but atleast with SN I can die atleast less gruesomely

Hopefully this goodbye thread is my last as I'm not sure if y'all remember but I tried using partial hanging method in 2023 but failed.Hopefully with SN it'll work this time.

I really tried my best to continue living but I can't keep lying to myself saying things will get better when I know they won't.I don't even care about anything anymore ,can't watch movies or play games.Just watch YouTube and rot away in bed.

I'm just not cut out for this world.I would like to say I'll miss my family but I won't ,they never treated me well for most of my life and only began caring when I was far too gone when I tried overdosing on sleeping pills.And I don't really have friends in my close live that I'll say I'll miss or will miss me cause most ppl I considered a friend in my life hated me except maybe 1 or 2 of my so called friends.

I don't have many regrets besides maybe not being loved by anyone.I would've liked to know what love felt like before I leave this realm.Im atheist so I don't really believe in heaven or hell either ,I just wanna sleep forever and cease existing.

Either way I'm not completely a victim I've done my fair share of abhorrent things in my lifetime I'm not without blame ,I'm sorry to everyone I've wronged.

Gonna update y'all on the protocol an hour or 2 before I drink SN


I guess the only thing I'll miss is my second favourite show of all time called "The Fosters" it taught me what it meant to be a family ,a family that doesn't give up on each other ,that doesn't ostracize one child ,a family that sticks together through thick and thin.I will forever love that show with all my heart along with my fav show of all time Mr Robot

For now gonna listen to my fav song future jr suburbia blue ,I first head it from the fosters




I'll also be listening to the Weeknd ,Without a warning.Such a banger album glad I had the privilege of listening to it before I kicked the bucket.




Imma ctb in a hotel ,I'm already in it rn but ppl are moving around a lot rn so I'll drink the SN later and wait for things to pipe down for now.Its currently 14:28 where I'm at.Hopefully all will go to plan I'll update y'all under this thread

I wish you peace and an easy passage. If I can tell you something about the details of your protocol, (benzo, metho, propranolol) will you use any of the above and in what quantities.

 

[APeacefulPlace]

Hope you find everything you're looking for and get peace and relief.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

All the best to you, thanks for being part of this family and hope you find your forever sleep in peace.

 

[DoMore]

Hi Quinton,

I hope all goes well for you, I know it's not the love that you wished for but if it helps in any way, I love you!

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[needthebus]

<3

sorry things have been so hard. it's always okay to change your mind. methyl blue is antidote if you change mind after starting. sending virtual hug and sorry things haven't been easy

brains change a lot from 19-21 and you could still wind up happy, scars can be sexy, you're young to do this and you can always change your mind

<3 for you friend I didn't know well, so sorry things have been difficult

 

[rozeske]

I wish you the best. I hope you find your peace.

 

[human909]

I wish you good luck and i hope you find the peace you've been looking for.

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish for you finding peace and rest, Quinton. I hope knowing we're thinking of you and value your having been here helps a wee bit.
Sven.

 

[Quinton Coldwater]

Hi Quinton,

I hope all goes well for you, I know it's not the love that you wished for but if it helps in any way, I love you!

Thank you I appreciate that
Protocol:

1:30 am: finished eating started fasting
11 am: started water fast
16:00: drank a pill called Adco prolief with a sip of water , supposedly a painkiller maybe.Couldnt find my meto anti emetic at home
17:00 take SN 25(g)

 

[needthebus]

Thank you I appreciate that
Protocol:

1:30 am: finished eating started fasting
11 am: started water fast
16:00: drank a pill called Adco prolief with a sip of water , supposedly a painkiller maybe.Couldnt find my meto anti emetic at home
17:00 take SN 25(g)

you don't have meto? im not that familar with the protocol. will what you are doing still fit with the handbook?

thinking of u <3

 

[Quinton Coldwater]

you don't have meto? im not that familar with the protocol. will what you are doing still fit with the handbook?

thinking of u <3

You don't need an anti emetic ,you can check out @EndJstifiesTheMeans thread

 

[needthebus]

You don't need an anti emetic ,you can check out @EndJstifiesTheMeans thread

okay, not that familar with it.

<3 for u

let us know how you are doing? u still here?

 

[Quinton Coldwater]

17:20 pm drank SN ,it's pretty salty ngl

 

[needthebus]

so sorry life has been hard. 911 and methyl blue if you change your mind, and if you dont then wish you peace. you seem like a cool wonderful person <3

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

Good luck my friend. Wishing you peace.

 

[tiredtired]

may you find peace in this world or the next

 

[billie]

i hope you find peace

 

[maniac116]

 

[thetruetato]

Rest in peace.

 

[Waiting for death]

We are in the same boat, I'll soon join you.

 

[Forveleth]

Hope you found the peace you were looking for

 

[Peace2peace]

Quiton has successfully ctb, I will be documenting the series of event later on thanks everyone

 

[bigbang33]

Wishing you eternal peace

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

Seems like it's definitely not necessary to have AE. Maybe I'll join you sooner than later

You don't need an anti emetic ,you can check out @EndJstifiesTheMeans thread

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