Goodbye Thread (SN)

[fancifulfate]

Will be using SN in a few hours, whenever my parents choose to lay down for their nap. Gonna be using 30g and hopefully regular purified water will work cause I don't have distilled. I have meto and clonazepam and have been taking meto since yesterday. Gonna prepare a 20g cup and a 10g cup in case I puke.

I have propanalol and clonazepam. Gonna take both about an hour before, whenever I catch wind they're laying down, along with some Tylenol. just wanna be calm. I'm done

 

[Sakura.]

whenever my parents choose to lay down for their nap.

Is it a good idea? Will they not notice your attempt?

 

[fancifulfate]

Is it a good idea? Will they not notice your attempt?

They only got a few hours of sleep last night, I'll be in the garage, pretty soundproof.
I tried to see if a couple people I know wanna come get me and hang out later. If either of them do I'm gonna take it as a sign to wait. But I doubt they will. I'm far away from everyone I know and not worth the trouble

 

[cali22]

Goodbye


Find your peace

 

[botanist_dude]

Get the peace you wanted. Have a safe journey

Just one question, what if they wake up before time for whatever reason and they find you? any contingency plans?

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[Sakura.]

They only got a few hours of sleep last night, I'll be in the garage, pretty soundproof.
I tried to see if a couple people I know wanna come get me and hang out later. If either of them do I'm gonna take it as a sign to wait. But I doubt they will. I'm far away from everyone I know and not worth the trouble

Then I just want to say that I'm very sorry that life turned out this way for you and that you didn't get the happiness you deserved. I'm so sorry...

 

[sugarh1gh]

I hope it goes as you planned.
Find peace, have pleasant journey.
I wish you the best.

 

[sancta-simplicitas]

Wish you the best, friend.

 

[nightlygem]

If you feel comfortable, please keep us updated. Whether it be for comfort, or for guidance, we are here for you and wish you the best. May your last moments be peaceful.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I hope you find peace!

 

[rozeske]

I wish you the best. I hope you find the peace you search for

 

[Unknown21]

I hope everything goes smoothly for you, goodbye.

 

[Princess_Kitty]

Farewell and good luck! I hope you find peace!

 

[fancifulfate]

Then I just want to say that I'm very sorry that life turned out this way for you and that you didn't get the happiness you deserved. I'm so sorry...

Thank you everyone for your kind words and well wishes, truly it brought tears to my eyes

It looks like today is not going to be the day as my dad has decided he has "too much work to do" to take a nap and is staying up. I think this is kind of a sign for me to wait a couple weeks, stash enough money away for an Uber to a hotel and a night at said hotel, to CTB. Looking back I was being a bit impulsive today and was risking getting caught too much, and after reading a recent users survival after SN and how harrowing it was I don't want that to be me. Also being in the U.S. I would not even have my phone or anything while being hospitalized for trying to CTB.

Thankfully I have plenty of meto and will actually have even more klonopin in a couple weeks when I should also have the funds for a hotel and what not. I'll also plan to get some actual distilled water in that timeframe. I'll still be posting here off and on and will post another goodbye thread once my hotel is booked and it's a bit more final. Just going to tell my parents the Uber is a date picking me up, will be an easy excuse, hotels around me aren't too expensive either and I don't need anything too fancy anyhow.

 

[m1ll1pede]

Find your peace op, good luck

 

[jbleakness]

Good luck. May you have everlasting peace

 

[nohopeforrope]

Trying this at home it's not "safe". There's enough time to rescue and stuff. The choice is wise, isolating yourself avoid being rescued and survive. Good luck.

 

[Onelegman]

One of the worst parts of CTB is knowing the exact day it will happen. And when you back out it's also terrible, because you know that you dodged that bullet on purpose to wait for the next one.
I'm glad you got that signal, doing things quickly and at home doesn't usually turn out well.

Some people have asked me why I went to all the trouble to plan it in an Airbnb and not go somewhere else quiet. I tell them that, being able to choose a place that calms me, knowing that I am alone and that I control everything I can about the situation, I prefer it. I overthink anything and I find many drawbacks to doing it outdoors.

This community is the most understanding thing I have found in life, it is normal because we all enter for the same reason, but it hurts so much that society is not equally understanding, that it is a taboo subject and that even professionals show you that they do not care. We matter, it makes you want to attack them right there. Either way, we will all find ourselves on the other side.

@fancifulfate I hope you find peace and the happiness that was not given to you.

 

[Kurai]

Wishing you peace and good luck

 

[YosemiteGrrl]

Thank you everyone for your kind words and well wishes, truly it brought tears to my eyes

It looks like today is not going to be the day as my dad has decided he has "too much work to do" to take a nap and is staying up. I think this is kind of a sign for me to wait a couple weeks, stash enough money away for an Uber to a hotel and a night at said hotel, to CTB. Looking back I was being a bit impulsive today and was risking getting caught too much, and after reading a recent users survival after SN and how harrowing it was I don't want that to be me. Also being in the U.S. I would not even have my phone or anything while being hospitalized for trying to CTB.

Thankfully I have plenty of meto and will actually have even more klonopin in a couple weeks when I should also have the funds for a hotel and what not. I'll also plan to get some actual distilled water in that timeframe. I'll still be posting here off and on and will post another goodbye thread once my hotel is booked and it's a bit more final. Just going to tell my parents the Uber is a date picking me up, will be an easy excuse, hotels around me aren't too expensive either and I don't need anything too fancy anyhow.

Distilled water not needed. Sending you wishes for a peaceful passing when the time is right.
Thank you for keeping us updated.

 

[fancifulfate]

One of the worst parts of CTB is knowing the exact day it will happen. And when you back out it's also terrible, because you know that you dodged that bullet on purpose to wait for the next one.
I'm glad you got that signal, doing things quickly and at home doesn't usually turn out well.

Some people have asked me why I went to all the trouble to plan it in an Airbnb and not go somewhere else quiet. I tell them that, being able to choose a place that calms me, knowing that I am alone and that I control everything I can about the situation, I prefer it. I overthink anything and I find many drawbacks to doing it outdoors.

This community is the most understanding thing I have found in life, it is normal because we all enter for the same reason, but it hurts so much that society is not equally understanding, that it is a taboo subject and that even professionals show you that they do not care. We matter, it makes you want to attack them right there. Either way, we will all find ourselves on the other side.

@fancifulfate I hope you find peace and the happiness that was not given to you.

Thank you kindly, I just found out today my parents are actually going to be leaving me home alone all day long on Saturday. So that will quite literally be the perfect time for me to CTB. They will be gone away at least 1.5 hour one way from home and they won't suspect anything if I nap for several hours. Couldn't think of anything better to happen honestly. I can't wait, I've fulfilled my obligations and can't stand going any longer

 

[justcallmeJ]

I wish you the best on your journey, safe travels <3

 

[bookgirl]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for

 

[Crash_Bash_Dash]

I wish everything goes well for you.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

when the day you've decided on has finally arrived, i wish you well on your journey and peace from this cruel existence.

 

[itsneverbeenmoreove]

I hope everything goes well. Also I love your Homura avi.

 

[ecliptic]

Good luck with your journey.