Goodbye my friends.

[LukaParrot]

First at all, I'd like to thanks for all the comunity here.

I could find the information I need and found some peace during my last days.

I'm not going to say about methods, timing because everyone here already know all about SN.

Sometimes I tried to help but maybe I did things worse. If I offended someone here, i'm really sorry. That was not my intention.

I wish I had found this forum sooner because I identified with many people here and, as strange as it may seem, it made me feel less alone and less sad.

I'd like to give a last advice to all of you: times flies in life so fast and i know when you're suffering... i doesnt look like that. The best years in life (in my opinion) are in their 20's and 30's, when you started to reach 40... 45..50, you can feel heavy burden, mistakes, things that you cant change anymore. I know that's not everybody case, but if it is, my advice as always is at least try when you are younger. Aging didnt help me to forget or feel better.

I said about regret not loving anymore but I couldnt love anyone else no matter how many years had passed, how many woman crossed my life. I tried, did therapy, did all prescribed drugs. I'm out of will and energy to study, to work, to live, if wasnt the meds I probably was already dead from starving in bed or admitted to some hospital giving expenses to my mother.

I feel like there is nothing more to me here. Nothing seens to matter anymore and that's a very hard thing to say. I know that my mother and sister will be OK with time and my belongings are going to help them, especially my sister that is 46, single, teacher and is trying to rebuild her life, she just want her own home without depending on my mother and a cat for company.

I had a great day with my mom, I told her about my worst disappointment in life. We went shopping, visited a pet shop, had lunch at nice place, bought her some gifts and hugged her one last time.

My sister, that never visited me in my apartment and never liked physical contact, a hug or a kiss on the cheek finally visited me, we talked about life and i could finally give her a hug, meant a lot to me.

Im' not writting this to people feel sorry for me but if you can, wish me peace.
It's weird, i'm not feeling depressed anymore, I feel relieved and in peace and just want to rest now.

Wish you all better luck in life than me.
Goodbye and by the way, my name is Rodolfo, I lived in Brazil.

 

[TheHolySword]

I'm glad you were able to find some solace in being here. Remember that we'll still be here while you are. I hope you find your peace, wherever and however that may look.

 

[femcelloser]

This was a really nice read. I'm glad you got to have those moments with your family and I hope you get your peace.

 

[bhaloo]

I'm glad that you are able to end your suffering and fine peace. One day I will too..

 

[OTanerd]

I hope you can rest and find peace. I was truly captivated by the way you write.

 

[Tony24]

I've seen many of your posts around the forum. You've been nothing but a helpful and positive member here, especially towards the younger people. It hurts to see you go, Rodolfo.

 

[Namelesa]

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain of this world

 

[Regen]

Dear Rodolfo,

I wish you deep peace and finally unconditional, endless love. You fought. May your transition be peaceful and free. You know, you are always welcome back if you decide to go at another time.

From the other side of the world I send light und love to you. Be free brave soul.

 

[telltaletail]

Wishing you a peaceful transition.

 

[genie]

I hope you find peace. I have a nihilistic outlook on life. I'm 33 and want to change but also feel like there is no hope and I am unemployed and too introverted but your post makes me want to try to be better.

 

[maniac116]

 

[human909]

I'm wishing you a wonderful transition and i am glad you found this site.

 

[an alien]

May you rest in peace, Rodolfo. May your mother and sister be able to cherish their last time spent with you and find and know their own peace

 

[CatLvr]

I am going to miss you, sir. Be at peace now.

 

[pointblank]

May your trip go smoothly and may you find the peace that you're seeking

 

[bigbang33]

This was very moving, and for some reason I am finding myself a little teary-eyed. I am so sorry it's come this this. I wish you the most peaceful transition and I sincerely hope that there is something wonderful for you on the other side.

 

[platypus77]

I'd like to give a last advice to all of you: times flies in life so fast and i know when you're suffering... i doesnt look like that. The best years in life (in my opinion) are in their 20's and 30's, when you started to reach 40... 45..50, you can feel heavy burden, mistakes, things that you cant change anymore. I know that's not everybody case, but if it is, my advice as always is at least try when you are younger. Aging didnt help me to forget or feel better.

I second this.

I have had many struggles throughout my life and most of the time felt like it was the end of the world.

IMHO most of circumstantial struggles in life are fixable if you really up for the work and put in the effort.

Maybe if I had realized it sooner life could be at least more bearable and getting older would be less of a burden.

PT-BR: Boa viagem meu amigo, descanse em paz!

 

[EternalShore]

see ya Rodolfo! I wish you and your family the best and will pray for you all~ :)

 

[rozeske]

Farewell Rodolfo, i hope you find your peace.

 

[J&L383]

First at all, I'd like to thanks for all the comunity here.

I could find the information I need and found some peace during my last days.

I'm not going to say about methods, timing because everyone here already know all about SN.

Sometimes I tried to help but maybe I did things worse. If I offended someone here, i'm really sorry. That was not my intention.

I wish I had found this forum sooner because I identified with many people here and, as strange as it may seem, it made me feel less alone and less sad.

I'd like to give a last advice to all of you: times flies in life so fast and i know when you're suffering... i doesnt look like that. The best years in life (in my opinion) are in their 20's and 30's, when you started to reach 40... 45..50, you can feel heavy burden, mistakes, things that you cant change anymore. I know that's not everybody case, but if it is, my advice as always is at least try when you are younger. Aging didnt help me to forget or feel better.

I said about regret not loving anymore but I couldnt love anyone else no matter how many years had passed, how many woman crossed my life. I tried, did therapy, did all prescribed drugs. I'm out of will and energy to study, to work, to live, if wasnt the meds I probably was already dead from starving in bed or admitted to some hospital giving expenses to my mother.

I feel like there is nothing more to me here. Nothing seens to matter anymore and that's a very hard thing to say. I know that my mother and sister will be OK with time and my belongings are going to help them, especially my sister that is 46, single, teacher and is trying to rebuild her life, she just want her own home without depending on my mother and a cat for company.

I had a great day with my mom, I told her about my worst disappointment in life. We went shopping, visited a pet shop, had lunch at nice place, bought her some gifts and hugged her one last time.

My sister, that never visited me in my apartment and never liked physical contact, a hug or a kiss on the cheek finally visited me, we talked about life and i could finally give her a hug, meant a lot to me.

Im' not writting this to people feel sorry for me but if you can, wish me peace.
It's weird, i'm not feeling depressed anymore, I feel relieved and in peace and just want to rest now.

Wish you all better luck in life than me.
Goodbye and by the way, my name is Rodolfo, I lived in Brazil.

Rodolfo, thank you. Your world may be thousands of miles from mine, but your thoughts and your words are near and dear. You gave it your best, you gave it a go, and when it comes to life, sometimes that's all you can do. .

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Hope you find peace soon

 

[danny10]

I wish you peace!

 

[dontwakemeup]

I don't think we ever crossed paths but I want to wish you a peaceful transition. Your last words made tear up, because I understand. I think people fantasize about that day and some never attempt, so they never understand how it feels to make that final decision, the enormous amount of emotions, that moment of happiness to know this is your last day, what to say, how to say goodbye, it's overwhelming.

I'm glad you could find peace and solace in this site. There are beautiful people on here.

I want to also say, if you ever think you can't do it, it's ok, you're not obligated.

It sounds like you've said your goodbyes and hopefully when you're gone your family can understand you tried everything.

I never say goodbye. What I will say is, I truly hope you get the ending you are happy with. Safe travels. Good night

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm glad you got to share some nice moments with your loved ones. I'm sorry life brought you to this stage despite trying so hard to turn things around. I hope you find peace.

 

[billie]

i hope you find peace

 

[APeacefulPlace]

Your presence on SS made me feel less lonely and shitty, I looked forward to messages you sent, thank you. Hope you're better off now, whatever that means for you.

 

[Luminous_]

Before I had created an account here and was merely a ghost stalking threads, I saw a couple of yours. I think you will already be gone now, so this message will fall on deaf ears, but you seemed like a kind man. I wish your family lives a great, peaceful life and that the things you provided them in your death will help them dearly. I am crying for you, as I have done for most of the death threads I've come across now. I like to think you're in the better place now, sleeping without suffering. Goodbye stranger.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Thank you for your message and sharing your story with advice to all of of us. Your words made a difference to me and this community in a good way. I wish you only peace and love and I'm glad that you are no longer feeling depressed. You are a kind soul, and will be remembered as a friend.

Goodbye Rodolfo from Brazil, it was a pleasure meeting you here

 

[outrider567]

Rest in Eternal Peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, best wishes.