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Morning Angel
Useless Broken Wings
- Aug 8, 2018
- 618
Looks like it's finally time.
I'm currently outside of the forest that will be the last place I ever exist on this earth. Tomorrow morning, I'm packing up, getting in my car, and going into the woods, where I will be self-euthanizing. I've gone as far as I can go given my failing health and the enormous amount of loss, isolation, and pain that accompanied it. I have fully accepted defeat and need to now stop. I'll be taking N and if all goes well, will drift away peacefully under the moonlight.
I am having my last meal tonight since I'll need to be fasting tomorrow: a sushi dinner and some ice cream - it's always been my favorite and not bad for a last kick if you ask me. (I want a cold Japanese beer, too, but I know I'm not supposed to.) In the very slight chance I somehow survive this reliable method, I promise to report back.
Whether or not you choose to stay and renegotiate life's terms, or you choose to to end suffering, I do hope the best for you all. I didn't need too much advice on my method, but I enjoyed quite a lot of social support and practical advice on technical, non-ctb related matters. I can't thank you all enough for that.
Much love to you all
I'm currently outside of the forest that will be the last place I ever exist on this earth. Tomorrow morning, I'm packing up, getting in my car, and going into the woods, where I will be self-euthanizing. I've gone as far as I can go given my failing health and the enormous amount of loss, isolation, and pain that accompanied it. I have fully accepted defeat and need to now stop. I'll be taking N and if all goes well, will drift away peacefully under the moonlight.
I am having my last meal tonight since I'll need to be fasting tomorrow: a sushi dinner and some ice cream - it's always been my favorite and not bad for a last kick if you ask me. (I want a cold Japanese beer, too, but I know I'm not supposed to.) In the very slight chance I somehow survive this reliable method, I promise to report back.
Whether or not you choose to stay and renegotiate life's terms, or you choose to to end suffering, I do hope the best for you all. I didn't need too much advice on my method, but I enjoyed quite a lot of social support and practical advice on technical, non-ctb related matters. I can't thank you all enough for that.
Much love to you all
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