J
Jacques
My bus is here :)
- Aug 26, 2018
- 27
Here it is. I'm in the last 24 hours, although now more like 18 hours, since I checked the weather forecast.
I've planned this to perfection and run over it a million times in my head. I know every action to still take and set a schedule, even although the exact time isn't important to me. I know I am prepared and this just has to succeed.
Problem is, this time I know it has to be final and there are things beyond my control that may go wrong, and I am becoming obsessed with that thought.
I can't take alcohol or other sedatives right now. I have nobody to talk to other than this group. Any ideas on how to slow the heart rate and relax a little?
I've planned this to perfection and run over it a million times in my head. I know every action to still take and set a schedule, even although the exact time isn't important to me. I know I am prepared and this just has to succeed.
Problem is, this time I know it has to be final and there are things beyond my control that may go wrong, and I am becoming obsessed with that thought.
I can't take alcohol or other sedatives right now. I have nobody to talk to other than this group. Any ideas on how to slow the heart rate and relax a little?