I went down on my meds cause I reported feeling apathetic. I feel terrible now and I think it would be a good idea to cut my friends off. I don't want my negativity to get them down. Self-sabotage also helps prevent me from getting hurt by others since I end the relationship on my own terms.
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- Aug 28, 2022
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Hey. I know it can be tempting. But self sabotage is not worth it! Hang onto relationships and your health! Don't give up dude
I have this person that I developed feelings for and they're so brave and positive. I wish I was more like them.I want to do the same thing, but it's hard to self isolate without making someone suspicious that I'm getting ready to die. It would certainly make it easier for me to do it though. Once everyone's out of sight long enough, I'll stop caring as much and just do it.
Besides, most people who reach out to me and ask how I'm doing aren't doing it because they're worried about me, but because they want something from me. It makes me hate everyone some days honestly.She's so beautiful, funny, smart and nice too. And works super hard. She's nonbinary like me too, so I'm head over heels for her. It sucks that I can't just admire her and continue to be friends. I really do wanna go on a date with her but she's busy all the time with either work or college stuff.
I want my happy romantic fantasy where I live happily with someone I love in a nice little apartment and have a bunch of pets. I should be more realistic because it's gotten to the point where just thinking about what I want makes me sad that I'm not there.
On the other hand, I genuinely believe that people are better off without me in their lives so I feel conflicted. Be happy or do the right thing?Ive been aelf isolating for weeks now. Might leave house once a week. Somehow, this week I have to leave almost daily and next week is more. Ugh. I hate when I get like this
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- Nov 12, 2021
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I can relate. I used to be very social and have lots of friends. But I've stopped taking care of myself, and gotten really fat with long hair so now I prefer to be all alone- hoping I will somehow vanish.I can relate. There was a community gathering for first time in years and I popped over. Everyone knew each other, and I was only person unacquainted with others. I had such social anxiety and felt so awkward. I covered it and interacted with several folks, but couldn't wait to get home to my book and music and ordinary anguish. I just don't enjoy the company of others much. It's all like that book on Transactional Analysis by Erice Berne, GAMES PEOPLE PLAY. Forget it. Let me be a home nudist and have only the raccoons as my company!Similar threads
