Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
I've wanted to do this for years, and the day is finally here. I won't write paragraphs about my life and my problems but my main reasons for ctb are: Depression (obviously), no interest in continuing to live, and wanting to go to my afterlife.
I'm doing the 24 hour regimen - I stopped eating at 11:10am and took my first anti-em tablet, then another at 7:10pm, 3:10am and three at 10:30am.
I'm going to mix 25g of sn in about 50ml of water for two glasses, just in case. I'll drink the SN at about 11:10.

I just want to say thank you to everyone, you were all so friendly and understanding, you made the past year bearable, and I didn't feel as if I was going through this alone.
You are all wonderful people and don't deserve to be going through this.
You can check out my poems on my profile if you want, they might not be very good, but I hope someone will get something out of them.

If I'm not back in a week, then deactivate my account.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,049
I wish you the best and I hope everything works out the way you want it. I hope you find the peace you search for ❤️
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,706
Love and peace to you, my good friend and always around if anything ever changes.

Walter
 
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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
Ok gonna prepare the glasses now
 
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lizzywizzy09

Specialist
May 11, 2024
381
I'm so sorry life put you in this corner. I hope you find peace and am sending you the biggest hug right now.
 
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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
Ok gonna drink it now
 
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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
Very salty
Taste in my mouth and throat
Kinda burns in my throat
Heart beating fast idk if its the sn tho
Feeling kinda hot
 
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KidWhite

Member
May 21, 2023
45
Very salty
Taste in my mouth and throat
Kinda burns in my throat
Heart beating fast idk if its the sn tho
Feeling kinda hot
A burning sensation in the throat. Is it painful or just unpleasant?
 
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Ksmиda

Ksmиda

Have I died too soon or lived too long?
Oct 23, 2023
187
Burning in stomach, very slight nausea
A burning sensation in the throat. Is it painful or just unpleasant?
Unpleasant, it went away now
 
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YosemiteGrrl

Student
Dec 17, 2023
144
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us as you go. I wish for you a peaceful and swift passage.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
9,647
I wish you all the best. Safe travels and good luck! I hope you find peace! :heart:🫂
 
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Kta1994

Kta1994

Experienced
Apr 25, 2019
252
Be at peace now ❤️
I just saw they were only 18, that makes me sad, people failed them
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Tortured by evil humans
Sep 24, 2020
35,209
I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.
 
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stuck_here

stuck_here

Member
May 12, 2024
24
I hope you are at peace now and free from all the suffering.
 
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thebelljarrr

Member
Apr 26, 2024
63
I hope you're sleeping well now
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
308
I've wanted to do this for years, and the day is finally here. I won't write paragraphs about my life and my problems but my main reasons for ctb are: Depression (obviously), no interest in continuing to live, and wanting to go to my afterlife.
I'm doing the 24 hour regimen - I stopped eating at 11:10am and took my first anti-em tablet, then another at 7:10pm, 3:10am and three at 10:30am.
I'm going to mix 25g of sn in about 50ml of water for two glasses, just in case. I'll drink the SN at about 11:10.

I just want to say thank you to everyone, you were all so friendly and understanding, you made the past year bearable, and I didn't feel as if I was going through this alone.
You are all wonderful people and don't deserve to be going through this.
You can check out my poems on my profile if you want, they might not be very good, but I hope someone will get something out of them.

If I'm not back in a week, then deactivate my account.
Best wishes
Light and love
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Member
Mar 18, 2024
66
Hope you found the peace you so crave
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
861
Oh friend, I read that with tears, I still remember the day you joined, I remember you and your avatar.
I wish you peace, I hope that SN will be merciful to you and that you will be transported safely to the afterlife. Goodbye ❤️
 
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hailspark

hail
Jan 23, 2024
15
I'll truly miss you my friend. I always enjoyed our conversations and your insights. I am so sorry it came to this but I hope you've found peace.
 
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Beyond_Repair

Beyond_Repair

Disheartened Ghost
Oct 27, 2023
286
Best wishes, hope you found peace and relief from your suffering :heart:
 
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blippy

Member
May 26, 2024
12
Hope you find peace 🤍 sending you love on your journey
 
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AveMori

Member
Feb 10, 2023
96
I'm very sorry society did not treat you better. It's quite sad for suicide to be the only viable option, but I hope you found peace and won't suffer anymore. You had a family here in your last moments.

Free at last.
 
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sugarh1gh

sugarh1gh

Death is new departure and beggining of a journey.
May 27, 2024
329
I came late, but wish you are peaceful now, finding all the freedoms from sorrow and scars.
Rest in peace.
 

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