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Horrors Lazuli

Horrors Lazuli

Member
Oct 12, 2019
49
Things continue to get worse with my health as much as I try to convince myself that I'll get better and that eventually I'll be allowed to get enough rest to get out of pain and reset myself. I don't see a way out of my misery in the capitalist system that requires me to work, study, gain skills, be proactive, work, look for work, etc... Having cerebral palsy has become a severe limitation in my ability to stay in school. I recently turned 30 and things keep getting worse.

It's becoming clear that I'm starting to develop ME/CFS, better known as chronic fatigue syndrome, and that activities like thinking and physically moving are taking an extreme toll on me.

I need to revisit ending myself and I'm frustrated because finding a method is difficult. Obviously I want SN but I'm having trouble getting it. I'm not worried about money, I just want to procure.

Can someone help me? My messages are open.
 
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DeusVult

DeusVult

Death Fetish
Aug 18, 2024
48
Why not use Nitrogen? I think it's easier than SN, I have a whole Nitrogen setup at home, wasn't that hard to setup, it's a quick 30 second death basically.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered so much, I hope you find the peace you search for, I wish you the best.
 
LakeMungoGirl

LakeMungoGirl

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Nov 6, 2025
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Why not use Nitrogen? I think it's easier than SN, I have a whole Nitrogen setup at home, wasn't that hard to setup, it's a quick 30 second death basically.
How expensive was the setup in total? If you don't mind me asking.