Pixiep
Existence is pain
- Sep 3, 2019
- 27
I think i decided Id like to do it tomorrow. I was planning for next week, because this weekend I was supposed to go visit my parents and younger brother that I have not seen since christmas...but i dont think I can look them in the eyes knowing what Im going to do. Theyre throwing and end of summer party with some of my cousins tho.. Cant decide if I wanna go see my family for myself and say goodbye, or not expose them all to misery i dont think i can hide. Cbt is already a selfish act. Should i really bring more selfishness into it?
Wasnt able to get my hands on a gun, so i will be going with my backup method, drop hanging. Picked my location. Writing my letters tonight. Buying rope tomorrow morning.
Read the wiki and some other forums. But anyone have any tips on hanging i need to know from own experience or theyre own research?
Side note: my boyfriend and i got into a fight today. We were supposed to have a date night of sorts and now for unrelated reasons he doesnt feel like talking to me tonight. No, this small spat is not the reason I am pushing my date forward. But Im wondering.. Should i try to reconnect with my boyfriend tonight and try to make up with him so he doesnt lose me while we were fighting? Or should i leave it be? I dont want him to feel any guilt which i feel like he might if I cbt while we are in a fight. But Im writing him an extensive letter letting him know its not his fault in the slightest.. And on the other side of things, what if I try to reconnect and he rejects it for the night...and THAT brings about guilt? Which way would you want it if you were him?
Please , I need the best answers you can give to the highlighted questions. I know they are hard ones.
Wasnt able to get my hands on a gun, so i will be going with my backup method, drop hanging. Picked my location. Writing my letters tonight. Buying rope tomorrow morning.
Read the wiki and some other forums. But anyone have any tips on hanging i need to know from own experience or theyre own research?
Side note: my boyfriend and i got into a fight today. We were supposed to have a date night of sorts and now for unrelated reasons he doesnt feel like talking to me tonight. No, this small spat is not the reason I am pushing my date forward. But Im wondering.. Should i try to reconnect with my boyfriend tonight and try to make up with him so he doesnt lose me while we were fighting? Or should i leave it be? I dont want him to feel any guilt which i feel like he might if I cbt while we are in a fight. But Im writing him an extensive letter letting him know its not his fault in the slightest.. And on the other side of things, what if I try to reconnect and he rejects it for the night...and THAT brings about guilt? Which way would you want it if you were him?
Please , I need the best answers you can give to the highlighted questions. I know they are hard ones.