NeverSatisfied
Experienced
- Dec 28, 2020
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So I've been trying out different antidepressants since a mild psychosis landed me in the hospital earlier this year and started taking lexapro (10mg/day) since October. Usually I don't feel anything but with lexapro I had to go through the whole initial bad side effects phase for a month before seeing any improvement. The I had a bag with my medication in it stolen while in another country and wasn't able to take it for about a week. My depression and anxiety slowly built and after day 6 I started experiencing "brain zaps." Once I was abble to restart I was fine. However, now the symptoms leading me to begin taking it have escalated dramatically. I recently had an episode where I was panicking and seeing stuff- the main thing being an endless succession of cars which caused me to almost step out in front of a car not knowing when to cross the street. I think this is due to my medication because I felt like I couldn't control my body and had that "brain zap" feeling when I stepped out into the road although I saw the car coming (also not my ideal way to ctb).
Has anyone else experienced this? My psychiatrist is talking about switching to another medication or upping my dose but I told her I think I want to come off of it. However, I'm in another country right now and don't have time to see a doctor before my pack runs out and I'm ready to come off it now as this feeling hasn't gone away and I've had a variety of other really bad panicky things happen. I researched it and think decreasing my dose by 25% a week would be the most effective. I haven't been on it for an entire year so I'm thinking things can't go too bad but I also had brain zaps after just one week of stopping and saw it's best to consult a doctor while weening off it. Surely people do it though right? I've seen where some people have a hard time but go cold turkey. I'm just scared of being tied to big pharma and medications for the rest of my life but I'm also scared I may need them. Advice? Opinions?
Has anyone else experienced this? My psychiatrist is talking about switching to another medication or upping my dose but I told her I think I want to come off of it. However, I'm in another country right now and don't have time to see a doctor before my pack runs out and I'm ready to come off it now as this feeling hasn't gone away and I've had a variety of other really bad panicky things happen. I researched it and think decreasing my dose by 25% a week would be the most effective. I haven't been on it for an entire year so I'm thinking things can't go too bad but I also had brain zaps after just one week of stopping and saw it's best to consult a doctor while weening off it. Surely people do it though right? I've seen where some people have a hard time but go cold turkey. I'm just scared of being tied to big pharma and medications for the rest of my life but I'm also scared I may need them. Advice? Opinions?