Going home soon

[Funeralprincess]

So I am actually going to be vlogging the moments up to my suicide. It's something I find to be theraputic and will be a release in some way. I plan on uploading it to YouTube (obviously not going to include the part of where I kill my self) but I think it could help some people. It'll have the fun things I did (even if they're simple things like having a cup of tea) to the vulnerable and dark feelings I had a long the way while grappling with the idea of my suicide.
I don't care if it gets viral or not, I just want it out there for anyone who feels it could comfort them in some way. I'm really glad I found this forum because it gave me the information I needed to die. This forum allowed me to also meet someone to end my life with, and that has given me a lot of comfort and happiness. I feel so light and happy knowing by the end of this summer I'll be going home (that's what I call it) to a much better place. A place where people are kind, love doesn't have conditions, and I'm not so fucked up and worthless. This choice has been so hard to make, but I know I have to make it. I think about all of the amazing people I've met on this forum, and the somewhat shitty people I've met on this forum and I can honestly say I derived knowledge and experience from both sides. It makes me sad, however to have gotten so close to many of you… some of you call me everyday lol and it'll just all be over. I've seen how many people here are just super dope people, and it saddens me to know that many here want to die because of what other people did to them. It saddens me so deeply and I just hope if anyone has a chance at recovering that they do take that chance; I hope they take that chance and find joy in knowing they have another shot at being alive.. I'm trying to post more here because I also find this forum to be a great outlet leading up to my final days. If any of you are also dying this summer, I hope you do some amazing things before your departure. Go on that date, buy that outfit, eat that amazing food, go for that long drive during sunset… do everything you can to make your last months, days, weeks, or hours the best ones of your life.

 

[Weebster]

How come you put your real picture as your avatar?

 

[alliebear]

Hi! Send prayers to you. I do understand how you felt. This is something that needed to be done. Whatever it is, keep updated, this world is full of bad things for us that try to stay and survive:( i wish people arent that mean and look pass by things that will hurt others

 

[Funeralprincess]

How come you put your real picture as your avatar?

Because, people will see my face anyways and I have no reason to hide. I don't need to conceal who I am when the world will see it in a vlog. But I could also end up changing it again because I'm picky and frequently change my pictures haha

Hi! Send prayers to you. I do understand how you felt. This is something that needed to be done. Whatever it is, keep updated, this world is full of bad things for us that try to stay and survive:( i wish people arent that mean and look pass by things that will hurt others

Hey Allie! Thanks for your support. Yes the world is cruel and us mentally ill people are constantly told to hush up about it and keep living. Not all of us can endure that pain :)

 

[lostmyacc]

I believe even if there is very limited content about methods and not showing anything per say bad. Youtube will still delete it. I would advise to upload it to a few alternative websites so in theory it will stand the test of time.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such a horrible world that we live in and it is sad how so much suffering exists. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you and I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[may13]

Wishing you the best.

 

[Funeralprincess]

I believe even if there is very limited content about methods and not showing anything per say bad. Youtube will still delete it. I would advise to upload it to a few alternative websites so in theory it will stand the test of time.

What sites do you suggest?

It really is such a horrible world that we live in and it is sad how so much suffering exists. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you and I hope that you find what you are looking for.

Yes the world is horrid and I'm happy to be able to have that sweet sense of freedom from it all

 

[london3]

What sites do you suggest?

Yes the world is horrid and I'm happy to be able to have that sweet sense of freedom from it all

I think the mainstream video hosts like youtube might delete it.

You can try sites like bitchute, peertube, dtube, rumble, odysee, they are censorship proof and host many types of content.

There are also gore sites like theync or goreflix which host actual suicides and many other violent videos.

Hope this has helped you

 

[Funeralprincess]

Thank you

 

[Veraln]

Reminder that videos are going to contain metadata of your location

 

[Funeralprincess]

Reminder that videos are going to contain metadata of your location

Thank you for that. By the time it's posted I'll have already been long gone :)

 

[alliebear]

Because, people will see my face anyways and I have no reason to hide. I don't need to conceal who I am when the world will see it in a vlog. But I could also end up changing it again because I'm picky and frequently change my pictures haha


Hey Allie! Thanks for your support. Yes the world is cruel and us mentally ill people are constantly told to hush up about it and keep living. Not all of us can endure that pain :)

Yess:( and not all of us get the support we needed. And even so… sometimes we cant try to heal the parts that are already broken no matter how hard they tried.. i felt like i will miss certain places/memories here in this earth but huge parts of me cant bear the pain. I think afterlife is the greatest gift for us

 

[Funeralprincess]

Yess:( and not all of us get the support we needed. And even so… sometimes we cant try to heal the parts that are already broken no matter how hard they tried.. i felt like i will miss certain places/memories here in this earth but huge parts of me cant bear the pain. I think afterlife is the greatest gift for us

Allie, the afterlife is way way better. People like us weren't made to stay on earth

 

[london3]

Thank you for that. By the time it's posted I'll have already been long gone :)

You can always use tools such as exiftool or adarsus etc to remove metadata before uploading

 

[BEATNGU]

May you walk on the face of ancients, traveller. This one wishes you a peaceful journey.