Anne Alias
tired.
- Feb 11, 2025
- 22
I swear to fucking god. what day what a life what beautiful radiant amazing fucking day im killing everyone right now ahahahaha haha ha ha ha ha ha. ha.
gld. okay. Just-
So. I really do wish I've known.. anyone. Had friends. I could, I think. Im sure if I weren't so scared even time anything happens, anything at all, I could make friends. I could at least do something. But its all hard. It's all so hard, and I am so so tired. You know.
I am every bad thing that's happened to me. If I didn't cause it directly, I made it worse, and if I didn't make it worse then it didn't happen at all. I can't remember a single fucking time, anything I didn't make worse. And we're alllllll gonna fucking die. everything is bad, so who gives a shit? We're gonna die. What does anything matter then. Why does it matter. Why am I scared?
Im gonna go mad and one my mind and destroy the world but im probably just going to do nothing because that sounds like it takes energy that I don't fucking have so I guess I just need to collapse on my floor and laugh at it all like I'm some movie character just really going through it. Who actually does that? Cinematic ass breakdowns, I swear. Feeling my heart grow in volume until I go to my bathroom, rip off my top, and sit in the slowly warming shower letting the noise of the water against my hair and feeling of it drippin down my face and strands of hair onto my hands. Thats not. Thats insane.
Whatever. Im gonna die, everything I own is broken, and I can't sleep, but. hey. I can still fuck nasty. I still have that.
Hypothetically though. I dont know a single person so its more in the spirit of it. Fuck you, you get what I mean. A ba ba ba yea yeah shush. my monolog, not yours. You're choosing to read this aren't you? If
Whatever. I donr care about that anymore.
I really do wonder, how was i so angry back in the day? It takes so much energy. It could also be that its been forever since I've eaten but its probably not. Maybe my soul is just rotten. That could be it.
I should go back to pretending to be asleep until I actually am. Good night sad people on the internet, I hope you have a better night than... whatever the hell this one has been.
gld. okay. Just-
So. I really do wish I've known.. anyone. Had friends. I could, I think. Im sure if I weren't so scared even time anything happens, anything at all, I could make friends. I could at least do something. But its all hard. It's all so hard, and I am so so tired. You know.
I am every bad thing that's happened to me. If I didn't cause it directly, I made it worse, and if I didn't make it worse then it didn't happen at all. I can't remember a single fucking time, anything I didn't make worse. And we're alllllll gonna fucking die. everything is bad, so who gives a shit? We're gonna die. What does anything matter then. Why does it matter. Why am I scared?
Im gonna go mad and one my mind and destroy the world but im probably just going to do nothing because that sounds like it takes energy that I don't fucking have so I guess I just need to collapse on my floor and laugh at it all like I'm some movie character just really going through it. Who actually does that? Cinematic ass breakdowns, I swear. Feeling my heart grow in volume until I go to my bathroom, rip off my top, and sit in the slowly warming shower letting the noise of the water against my hair and feeling of it drippin down my face and strands of hair onto my hands. Thats not. Thats insane.
Whatever. Im gonna die, everything I own is broken, and I can't sleep, but. hey. I can still fuck nasty. I still have that.
Hypothetically though. I dont know a single person so its more in the spirit of it. Fuck you, you get what I mean. A ba ba ba yea yeah shush. my monolog, not yours. You're choosing to read this aren't you? If
Whatever. I donr care about that anymore.
I really do wonder, how was i so angry back in the day? It takes so much energy. It could also be that its been forever since I've eaten but its probably not. Maybe my soul is just rotten. That could be it.
I should go back to pretending to be asleep until I actually am. Good night sad people on the internet, I hope you have a better night than... whatever the hell this one has been.
