Going away

[Suicidalastronaut]

I'm hoping today will be my last.

Just saw my therapist, pretended that I was okay.

I'm sick and tired of this shitty world doing everything it can to destroy me.

I'm going to head to Walmart to buy a rope. My anchor point is only 5 feet off the ground but I can probably position myself in way where the blood flow will stop flowing into my head. I'm going to use benadryl and alcohol to sedate myself so it'll be a lot easier.

No one will likely check on me until midday monday. Not that anyone really cares about me anymore at this point.

I'm legitimately living in a black mirror episode where the only escape is to off myself. I'm tired of doing this so I will be putting an end to it.

 

[haihaihai]

hey, i hope you find peace.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

hey, i hope you find peace.

So do I. I just tested the loop and it works. Started to feel woozy after a few seconds. I think this is going to work.

 

[haihaihai]

So do I. I just tested the loop and it works. Started to feel woozy after a few seconds. I think this is going to work.

That's scary. I know i'm an hour late & you've probably left by now, but I wish only the best for you and the journey ahead of you.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

That's scary. I know i'm an hour late & you've probably left by now, but I wish only the best for you and the journey ahead of you.

The SI kicked in but I'm leaving the noose there. It works. I tested it. I'm sure I'll eventually use it. Just need a bad enough day. It only takes 30 seconds of courage before being rendered unconscious

 

[haihaihai]

hey, i'm glad you're able to stick around a while longer.snd thsnk you for sharing your incite!

 

[nintendo64]

I'm doing hanging for my method as well, I've tested it and it doesn't seem so bad. It's all over quickly. I'm so sorry you've gotten to this point, I hope you can feel peace with whatever you decide.