god why am i so fucking stupid

[thunderandlightning]

ive tried to CTB many times, but im such a failer that none of them even work. i was hospatalized a couple weeks ago for this, and honestly i just want to do it right this time. i cant stay at a hospital again, i just want to be gone.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm very sorry that you have so many failed attempts. This must be a horrible feeling. CTB is much better than another time in a hospital. Wish you all the best and good luck!

 

[MusicEnjoyer:D]

I think here you can find very reliable methods that will help you have a safer trip to the other side.

Do your research, find your method, and stick to it. I wish you the best of luck, and may you find the peace you deserve.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing a ctb attempt sounds so horrible to me and is exactly what I fear, I hate how we exist in this hellish world where we are denied access to a straightforward, guaranteed and peaceful method. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[MusicGuy]

I'm sorry you failed previous attempts, I hope you can find anything you need in here. I wish you the best of lucks

 

[Dainhla]

I had felt like that last year when I attempted. This year a black cloud of constant sadness and hopelessness have made me realise how useless I am. I could have ended all last year, but here I am. Trapped in a life that doesn't want me, and I feeling reciprocal towards that feeling, 'cause I just don't want anymore to live.

So I just hope you don't end up hospitalised again and finally reach peace, that is what you deserve. Don't be stressed about the possibility of failing, just do it calmly. You're worthy to have a peaceful death. All the best

 

[thunderandlightning]

I had felt like that last year when I attempted. This year a black cloud of constant sadness and hopelessness have made me realise how useless I am. I could have ended all last year, but here I am. Trapped in a life that doesn't want me, and I feeling reciprocal towards that feeling, 'cause I just don't want anymore to live.

So I just hope you don't end up hospitalised again and finally reach peace, that is what you deserve. Don't be stressed about the possibility of failing, just do it calmly. You're worthy to have a peaceful death. All the best

just came back to this account after a while. thank you. i "tried" recovering but obvi it was bs and im just back where i started. planning again for sometime this week

 

[Dainhla]

just came back to this account after a while. thank you. i "tried" recovering but obvi it was bs and im just back where i started. planning again for sometime this week

Hii, it's heartbreaking to know that. I'm also trying to recover, as I ended up hospitalised four months ago in reason of a more dangerous attempt than my first one. I really hope you get better and if not, you're equally in right of doing what you think it's going to be a solution for you.