Venting God wants me to kill myself, I can feel it

[KillingPain267]

Just when I feel a bit better, something happens where I feel worse again and get a resolve to kill myself. It never ends, so it's a sign that I am predetermined to kill myself or just wallow and writhe in mental anguish. I can't take it anymore!

 

[Yume Nikki]

I have this feeling too, that if a God exists, then he wants me to suffer, anytime something good happens to me, it gets snatched away in the blink of an eye, whether that be a relationship, a friendship, going to school, etc. something bad always happens after wards. It's why I lean towards agnosticism over everything else.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

There is no god. This cruelly-made universe is the work of a diabolical entity.

 

[yowai]

If he exists and is behind this then he should do something useful like watch over children in vulnerable situations lol not this petty shit

 

[LostLily]

At this point, I think God hates me

 

[KillingPain267]

I have this feeling too, that if a God exists, then he wants me to suffer, anytime something good happens to me, it gets snatched away in the blink of an eye, whether that be a relationship, a friendship, going to school, etc. something bad always happens after wards. It's why I lean towards agnosticism over everything else.

I don't lean towards rejecting God due to this. My suicide will be for God's purposes and I'm happy about that.

 

[extremelytired1]

Hey, religious person here.

God loves you, your soul is your connection to God. It doesn't matter what faith, belief, gender, race, sexuality you are, God loves everyone, even when they might not deserve it. I believe it is the cruelty of this world, the cruelty of others and the cruelty of fate that brought us here. I like to think of this life as an adventure before we return to god. Some of them are frightening or upsetting but those are the cards we've been dealt. I'm truly sorry for everyone on this site. Personally I have no hope. I don't really want to die but my life is what it is. I implore any of you who can, to tap into that last bit of hope, strength, determination and resilience you have. Things almost always can be reversed, or get better, especially with time. Please, try and be hopeful, because you do deserve better than suicide

 

[KillingPain267]

Hey, religious person here.

God loves you, your soul is your connection to God. It doesn't matter what faith, belief, gender, race, sexuality you are, God loves everyone, even when they might not deserve it. I believe it is the cruelty of this world, the cruelty of others and the cruelty of fate that brought us here. I like to think of this life as an adventure before we return to god. Some of them are frightening or upsetting but those are the cards we've been dealt. I'm truly sorry for everyone on this site. Personally I have no hope. I don't really want to die but my life is what it is. I implore any of you who can, to tap into that last bit of hope, strength, determination and resilience you have. Things almost always can be reversed, or get better, especially with time. Please, try and be hopeful, because you do deserve better than suicide

We will die anyway, eventually. I am tired, I tried everything and have no more strength. It's time to accept defeat. Continuing further is just shameful. The loving thing is to let go.

 

[extremelytired1]

We will die anyway, eventually. I am tired, I tried everything and have no more strength. It's time to accept defeat. Continuing further is just shameful. The loving thing is to let go.

I don't know your situation so I can't comment, other than to say, I'm sure you'll leave behind some devastated people and a lot of potential. Imagine looking back on your life from the other side, kicking yourself when you're shown the possibilities the future held.

 

[death_bed221]

The only time I feel love is when I imagine myself killing myself. I was a happy child but eventually life/god/universe finds a way to destroy you. If there is a god he is one evil motherfucker. No one deserves to feel like me. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

 

[NegevChina]

Just when I feel a bit better, something happens where I feel worse again and get a resolve to kill myself. It never ends, so it's a sign that I am predetermined to kill myself or just wallow and writhe in mental anguish. I can't take it anymore!

I pray to god each night to kill me so I don't have to wake up the next day. It never happens. I guess god wont help anyone that wont help himself. I'll have to help my self then.

 

[ihatemen420]

Hey, religious person here.

God loves you, your soul is your connection to God. It doesn't matter what faith, belief, gender, race, sexuality you are, God loves everyone, even when they might not deserve it. I believe it is the cruelty of this world, the cruelty of others and the cruelty of fate that brought us here. I like to think of this life as an adventure before we return to god. Some of them are frightening or upsetting but those are the cards we've been dealt. I'm truly sorry for everyone on this site. Personally I have no hope. I don't really want to die but my life is what it is. I implore any of you who can, to tap into that last bit of hope, strength, determination and resilience you have. Things almost always can be reversed, or get better, especially with time. Please, try and be hopeful, because you do deserve better than suicide

God punished me for going to bed early yesterday by killing my cat. This is all just a game to him. I'm sick of his shit. I'm going to ram my fist up his asshole and rip his guts out when I see him. He deserves to be punished for this. I wish I could bend him over my knee and beat his bare ass raw like the misbehaving child he is. He makes me fucking SICK. I COULD VOMIT.

 

[CandleShade]

Remember the wise words of The Dancing Master: "There is only one god, and His name is Death. And there is only one thing we say to Death: 'not today'.

 

[ViniTerrible]

I strongly relate to this