God, I'm in so much fucking emotionally induced physical pain. My fucking chest hurts. Goddamnit, fuck this. I should CTB, I can't take this pain.

[InsatiableEmptiness]

No one gives a fuck about my existence. What's the best CTB method of I don't have access to a shotgun

 

[FuneralCry]

The method that I would see as being the best is Nembutal but nobody can get that. I think the problem with that question is that we exist in such an anti suicide society where any more peaceful methods get restricted, suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult in this world. But there is a suicide resource complination on here for method research, there are no easy answers to this though, if suicide was more straightforward I would be long gone. I wish you the best, it sounds really awful what you have to endure, life certainly is so unnecessarily cruel.

 

[InsatiableEmptiness]

Thank you for replying. I wish it were simpler too.

 

[Iva]

No one gives a fuck about my existence. What's the best CTB method of I don't have access to a shotgun

The roughest thing about this world is how we all have to go through it alone. I'm also like you in that I'm waiting for access to a firearm since SN isn't so readily available anymore where I'm at. Other options I'd consider is SA since it is difficult to test for and looks like a natural death. Also Nitrogen seems like a wet dream in how quickly you can CTB with it.