Giving up

[ilovecats]

I'm not giving up on life. I just don't feel the need to study, work and trying to "recover" anymore. It's all for nothing. I'm certain than I will ctb. Not sure when or how, but I know I will. I'm not willing to do anything, as I know it's pointless and I would only end up more miserable. It really doesn't matter at all, so why bother? After I die, it would be like everything never existed to me anyway. I can't sleep. My head is a mess and everything I feel now is desperation, everything else feels "fuzzy". No happiness, no sadness, just the desire to end my life. I've said before that I don't want to act out of desperation but I feel like if I don't, I'll only suffer more. There's nothing pushing me to keep trying, no meaning behind our existence and no reason to keep living. I will just rot for now until I get the courage and resources to ctb.

 

[MidnightCat]

I'm sorry to hear that...

I would love to magically had some words to make it better, but unfortunately... I feel the same.

 

[Monarch]

Life might be meaningles and maybe have a meaning, Ik you must've give it a thought but try to live a bit longer incase there's a light or find a reason for ur life to be meaningful and if its not then its up to you to decide.

 

[SilentSadness]

I am also certain I will ctb when I get the chance; it's truly pointless to stay here and suffer relentlessly. My ambitions are long-gone and often I forget I ever had any. I hope that you find peace in this wretched reality.

 

[SleepWell]

I'm not giving up on life. I just don't feel the need to study, work and trying to "recover" anymore. It's all for nothing. I'm certain than I will ctb. Not sure when or how, but I know I will. I'm not willing to do anything, as I know it's pointless and I would only end up more miserable. It really doesn't matter at all, so why bother? After I die, it would be like everything never existed to me anyway. I can't sleep. My head is a mess and everything I feel now is desperation, everything else feels "fuzzy". No happiness, no sadness, just the desire to end my life. I've said before that I don't want to act out of desperation but I feel like if I don't, I'll only suffer more. There's nothing pushing me to keep trying, no meaning behind our existence and no reason to keep living. I will just rot for now until I get the courage and resources to ctb.

I know what you mean as I am the same. Giving up after years of trying to get better is in a way so relieving. There are no words for me to say to you besides good luck and sleep well friend.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's true that is existing is completely useless and worthless, I see no point to struggling endlessly all for the sake of it when we are all just destined to die anyway. Life certainly does lead to nothing and nowhere apart from our inevitable death which is why suicide could never be a bad thing.
I would prefer to take control over when I die and if someone wishes to do that then it should be accepted as being a personal decision. I certainly see life as just being suffering all for the sake of it and enduring this could never appeal to me under any circumstances when after all we are all just destined to decay from old age.