Angst Filled Fuck Up
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- Sep 9, 2018
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Well I've been on SS a little over six months now, and it's become clear to me I don't have the heart to follow through.
But more than that, and as some of you know, I've been waiting on some clarity regarding my future here in the US (am from Europe originally). Yesterday I finally received confirmation that I will be allowed to remain here. So I've decided to try and use this opportunity to better myself. I will attempt to go back to school, first and foremost. I am wanting to attempt a trade, and am looking into being a plumber, perhaps. It seems pretty low-key and not too people-oriented. Plus it will get me out of the house more and allow me to work with my hands, which I think is always a plus for people with depression.
I'm a bit older, 35, and I have some anxiety/fatigue-related issues, so I'm not sure how well any of this will pan out, if at all. But I can't sit around feeling sorry for myself forever.
I do think there is such a thing as rolling around in the gutter for too long. At some point you have to kind of decide whether you want to give up, or give it all a solid try. I feel somewhat invigorated by my good fortune lately, so I am going to try and go with the flow in hopes that I can turn my life around. Because as tempting as it sometimes sounds, I don't really want to sit around j/o and eating pizza for the next 40 years. I'm also tired of being poor, and I think I can make some positive changes in that regard if I persevere with my new plans.
Losing some established members that I was fond of, and this crappy site re-design have kind of helped push me out the door, too. I will likely still be around, but probably posting less, and maybe not as miserably as before, depending on whether I can get things to work out in my own life.
Luck and love to you all.
But more than that, and as some of you know, I've been waiting on some clarity regarding my future here in the US (am from Europe originally). Yesterday I finally received confirmation that I will be allowed to remain here. So I've decided to try and use this opportunity to better myself. I will attempt to go back to school, first and foremost. I am wanting to attempt a trade, and am looking into being a plumber, perhaps. It seems pretty low-key and not too people-oriented. Plus it will get me out of the house more and allow me to work with my hands, which I think is always a plus for people with depression.
I'm a bit older, 35, and I have some anxiety/fatigue-related issues, so I'm not sure how well any of this will pan out, if at all. But I can't sit around feeling sorry for myself forever.
I do think there is such a thing as rolling around in the gutter for too long. At some point you have to kind of decide whether you want to give up, or give it all a solid try. I feel somewhat invigorated by my good fortune lately, so I am going to try and go with the flow in hopes that I can turn my life around. Because as tempting as it sometimes sounds, I don't really want to sit around j/o and eating pizza for the next 40 years. I'm also tired of being poor, and I think I can make some positive changes in that regard if I persevere with my new plans.
Losing some established members that I was fond of, and this crappy site re-design have kind of helped push me out the door, too. I will likely still be around, but probably posting less, and maybe not as miserably as before, depending on whether I can get things to work out in my own life.
Luck and love to you all.