Given up on life. Venting

[picklemick]

I have completely given up on life the last month or so. I made a decision to ctb. Not paying bills, ignoring work, basically ignoring all life requirements. I've been so depressed after my psychiatric hold I haven't been out of bed in several days. My mom unfortunately is now in my house trying to get me to function as a basic human so I mostly just stay in my bedroom. It's extremely anxiety inducing.
I'm finding partial suspension much more difficult to do than expected. It's really stressing me out. I wish this was easier to just go. Not fair.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I have completely given up on life the last month or so. I made a decision to ctb. Not paying bills, ignoring work, basically ignoring all life requirements. I've been so depressed after my psychiatric hold I haven't been out of bed in several days. My mom unfortunately is now in my house trying to get me to function as a basic human so I mostly just stay in my bedroom. It's extremely anxiety inducing.
I'm finding partial suspension much more difficult to do than expected. It's really stressing me out. I wish this was easier to just go. Not fair.

Take each day as it comes, why was partial gaming difficult??? I haven't tried mine yet but that's my ctb method and I was just researching online how long was Caroline Flack's friend was outside ( because I want to know how long it will take for me to lose consciousness). I hope I will be out of it within minutes.

 

[picklemick]

Take each day as it comes, why was partial gaming difficult??? I haven't tried mine yet but that's my ctb method and I was just researching online how long was Caroline Flack's friend was outside ( because I want to know how long it will take for me to lose consciousness). I hope I will be out of it within minutes.

Can't get myself to pass out. Likely need to work up the courage to do full suspension. Have a solid anchor, but no suitable rope around the house.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

Can't get myself to pass out. Likely need to work up the courage to do full suspension. Have a solid anchor, but no suitable rope around the house.

You will when you are ready … all the best with the decision that you will take

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Overcoming SI is so hard and difficult and a peaceful CTB is also so difficult in our society. I wish you strength and all the best!

 

[picklemick]

You will when you are ready … all the best with the decision that you will take

I hope soon. Can't take this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Hanging really does sound like a difficult method to succeed with, it certainly makes it sound easier when you hear of all these people managing to go through with it and I envy them. Suicide really should be easier and I find it so horrible how we cannot just easily free ourselves from existence, I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.