Given my additional details, do you think if I attempt someday that I will feel at peace as I fall to my death?

[Ambivalent1]

Yesterday I went to the ER for severe chest pain. I've gotten a few hours of sleep all week and I read that can kill you. My pulse was high. On the way there, I thought I might die at the hospital and I was at peace with it.

 

[AkaRed]

Different people will experience different emotions in those sorts of situations as they are presented with their oncoming end.
I think being at peace would be a lovely feeling, and I'm glad you got to experience that for yourself, to really gain new perspective.

I do think though that being able to come to terms and re-create that feeling with CTB, can be a bit difficult unless it is something deeply engrained within you.
Most people do not CTB because they feel at peace, but rather because they feel anything but at peace within themselves and their lives.

If it's a risk you are willing to take, I wish you well in whatever you decide. I do hope it is just as peaceful, if not more.

<3

 

[Forveleth]

Most people do not CTB because they feel at peace, but rather because they feel anything but at peace within themselves and their lives.

If this ain't a quote worth remembering.

 

[Abyssal]

I'm biased because I could never do it but I struggle to imagine falling to be at all pleasant for anyone. If you are worried you'll be afraid while falling then you probably would be. But I'm not you and have never jumped before so idk

 

[Ambivalent1]

Different people will experience different emotions in those sorts of situations as they are presented with their oncoming end.
I think being at peace would be a lovely feeling, and I'm glad you got to experience that for yourself, to really gain new perspective.

I do think though that being able to come to terms and re-create that feeling with CTB, can be a bit difficult unless it is something deeply engrained within you.
Most people do not CTB because they feel at peace, but rather because they feel anything but at peace within themselves and their lives.

If it's a risk you are willing to take, I wish you well in whatever you decide. I do hope it is just as peaceful, if not more.

<3

I'm not at peace. Im asking if I would feel at peace during the fall since the ER visit showed me that death was acceptable.

 

[AkaRed]

I'm not at peace. Im asking if I would feel at peace during the fall since the ER visit showed me that death was acceptable.

I can't say for certain. The circumstances being different could change things, but if death did feel acceptable- your chances might be pretty alright. It's ultimately up to you to decide, though.

<3