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ThanksBigPharma
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- Feb 3, 2023
- 15
I am dying of a neurological disease granted me by the goddamned COVID vaccine. I used to have a normal life I loved to live - now every moment is pure torture.
I have no intentions of letting this burn me all the way down to nothing and be in tremendous pain as I slowly become paralyzed and then die anyway, so I want to hang myself tonight while my partner is out of town. It sucks that she'll come back to this, but I am too weak and sick to go do it anywhere else and I have tons of warning notes along with my goodbye messages that I will be posting all around the house / outside the room I plan to CTB in. (I know it's still terrible, but this is a desperate situation.)
The problem is - like with just about everyone - I can't make myself do it. I have gotten close before, and got fuzzy, but survival instinct kicks in and I freak out and save myself. The last time was months ago, though, before I had medical confirmation that my nerves are indeed dying and there is no treatment available. This is confirmed to be killing me, so CTB will just be going on my own time and terms.
Anyway - I need some moral support. Anyone got any for me? What do you plan on telling yourself before you go?
Help!
I have no intentions of letting this burn me all the way down to nothing and be in tremendous pain as I slowly become paralyzed and then die anyway, so I want to hang myself tonight while my partner is out of town. It sucks that she'll come back to this, but I am too weak and sick to go do it anywhere else and I have tons of warning notes along with my goodbye messages that I will be posting all around the house / outside the room I plan to CTB in. (I know it's still terrible, but this is a desperate situation.)
The problem is - like with just about everyone - I can't make myself do it. I have gotten close before, and got fuzzy, but survival instinct kicks in and I freak out and save myself. The last time was months ago, though, before I had medical confirmation that my nerves are indeed dying and there is no treatment available. This is confirmed to be killing me, so CTB will just be going on my own time and terms.
Anyway - I need some moral support. Anyone got any for me? What do you plan on telling yourself before you go?
Help!