ghosting who I thought was my soul mate

[looking_for_peace]

I'm slightly drunk; I will definitely regret posting this in the morning. but I drunk messaged my ex a little bit ago. I had to ghost her because I know I'm going to ctb, and I didn't want to tell her that. she asked me why I ghosted her and I had to make up some bullshit excuse. all she said was "okay." I don't think she even cares as much as I do haha. we had known each other for 5 years before I stopped talking to her. I wished we could've been a couple, but it wasn't meant for us. has anyone else had dealt with something similar? having to ghost someone you didn't want to? it is so painful. she is the only person who made me happy. but I could not make her happy.

 

[Sovereign]

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with such difficult emotions and thoughts. Ghosting someone is never easy, and I can only imagine how painful it must be for you to not be able to share your true reasons for doing so with someone you cared about. It sounds like you're going through a lot, and I encourage you to seek help and support from a trusted friend or professional. Remember that you are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help you through this. It does sound like you've made up your mind, so any advice I give will be pretty useless. I hope that your future, in life or in death, will find you well.