A few months ago, I had Electro-Convulsive Therapy. Didnt work..I am still suicidal..but, the reason I am sharing it is because...under the anesthesia..I used to get stuck in an endless loop of a dream...very strange...hard to describe...but, it was horrifying..so, I am worried...hanging is my method...what if I don't die, like near-hanging...and, instead get stuck in some strange reality..
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- Apr 12, 2019
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It's not what anyone would hope for, is it. Sort of like what characters in books might experience, when they're being read by assorted people ...
I reckon we all have fears of something like that, and it's probably better not to dwell on them too much. x
I reckon we all have fears of something like that, and it's probably better not to dwell on them too much. x
Hanging is my method too but I'm finding it really hard to attempt because it wasn't comfortable last time I attempted.
I tried hanging like 3 times and It wasn't pleasant for me at all. If you don't do it right you can wake up choking in the middle of that "state" it has happened to me
ikr? It takes a lot to jump and there's still a few seconds where it is horribly uncomfortable.
ikr? It takes a lot to jump and there's still a few seconds where it is horribly uncomfortable.
i can get it. for the past few years ive been convinced i overdosed and have been living in a weird fugue dream state where im half-alive and half-dead ever since. a (most likely probably irrational) fear i have is that i'll ctb and nothing will happen, like i'll just be stuck like that forever. who knows.
