Guld
Member
- Mar 10, 2019
- 15
So there's a train track really close to where i live (Not a station, just rails in the middle of nowhere), and getting run over seems like a really good way to kill myself. The reason i haven't done it yet is because i don't know when the train goes through here and waiting for it is boring as hell. I'm not really concerned about it, but i do wonder, is it hard to lie still in front of a train? It seems like it would be easy, compared to drowning where its super uncomfortable and easy to make it stop. Does survival instinct kick in the same way? If so, would alcohol help? I don't have access to any drugs or medicine, but alcohol wouldn't be a problem (except for the taste).
I'm probably going to just walk along the tracks till the train arrives. Another thing, how should i position myself to make sure i don't survive? I was thinking to sit down on my knees and lower my head over one of the rails, hoping that will decapitate me. Will i have time to do that if the train is like 200m away? The train is really old, I'd say 1970s or so, if that makes any difference.
And yes, I'm aware of how traumatizing it would be for the driver, and how fucked up my body would look afterwards.
People can get over me dying. I cant get over me living.
I'm probably going to just walk along the tracks till the train arrives. Another thing, how should i position myself to make sure i don't survive? I was thinking to sit down on my knees and lower my head over one of the rails, hoping that will decapitate me. Will i have time to do that if the train is like 200m away? The train is really old, I'd say 1970s or so, if that makes any difference.
And yes, I'm aware of how traumatizing it would be for the driver, and how fucked up my body would look afterwards.
People can get over me dying. I cant get over me living.