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Kill off the old me before I decide to kill myself
- Nov 8, 2023
- 98
I notice whenever I am coming out of a dark period, I have trouble allowing myself to fully engage with feeling okay.
I think this is because of feeling bad about giving people whiplash. Or feeling bad about feeling bad and good like hot and cold touches (giving myself whiplash and feeling it's almost better/easier to commjt to one).
I implode every few years and destroy everything around me and I feel like I am just gleaming past one now. I was bedridden for a week. Now I have to decide tomorrow will be different and act on it. It's hard and hard to say if I'll feel this way after I get some sleep.
I think this is because of feeling bad about giving people whiplash. Or feeling bad about feeling bad and good like hot and cold touches (giving myself whiplash and feeling it's almost better/easier to commjt to one).
I implode every few years and destroy everything around me and I feel like I am just gleaming past one now. I was bedridden for a week. Now I have to decide tomorrow will be different and act on it. It's hard and hard to say if I'll feel this way after I get some sleep.