Venting getting more and more restless, thinking about just using a knife. i only have $73

[grendel4578]

i don't think i can afford a better method. i only have $73 USD right now. every day i feel worse and worse and more and more hopeless and think about the fact we all die in the end anyways and there is nothing after as well. thinking about just going into the kitchen when home alone, taking the largest, sharpest knife, and cutting and stabbing deep into my throat trying to sever the carotid artery/jugular vein and trying to ignore the pain. i don't know what else to do. i am desperate. i also have a full bottle of ritalin but i'm not sure if it will do much if i take all of it

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Cutting and overdosing on Ritalin are both very unreliable methods than will almost certainly just put you in a position of more suffering. Not to mention scaring.

 

[grendel4578]

Cutting and overdosing on Ritalin are both very unreliable methods than will almost certainly just put you in a position of more suffering. Not to mention scaring.

What about charcoal burning in the bathroom? And I heard that like 120 mg of Ritalin can be lethal but i assume it'd take a while and i'd probably be forced into a hospital before then.

 

[front of me]

drowned

 

[spinningmyself]

I think if I have to use a knife to ctb I would most likely go for my heart. If I drink enough to get goofy I could get a big enough knife and just go for it that way. It might end up being my way if I am not able to get it done the way I have been thinking/planning on.

 

[venin]

i don't think i can afford a better method. i only have $73 USD right now. every day i feel worse and worse and more and more hopeless and think about the fact we all die in the end anyways and there is nothing after as well. thinking about just going into the kitchen when home alone, taking the largest, sharpest knife, and cutting and stabbing deep into my throat trying to sever the carotid artery/jugular vein and trying to ignore the pain. i don't know what else to do. i am desperate. i also have a full bottle of ritalin but i'm not sure if it will do much if i take all of it

I've been there. That's a tough situation to be in…

 

[grendel4578]

I think if I have to use a knife to ctb I would most likely go for my heart. If I drink enough to get goofy I could get a big enough knife and just go for it that way. It might end up being my way if I am not able to get it done the way I have been thinking/planning on.

seems kind of hard to me cause of the ribcage so proper placing could be hard, don't know though, i am dumb. i guess it's still possible though

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What about charcoal burning in the bathroom?

You should consider that. Here's a good guide and the megathread:

Charcoal method advice

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[FuneralCry]

I find it so inhumane how it's so difficult to cease existing on our own terms, it's horrible how we cannot just easily and peacefully escape from all the suffering in a guaranteed way. But anyway I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for as I get that it certainly can be so torturous feeling trapped here.

 

[The Abyss]

Decapitation by train sounds preferable to that.

 

[Gonnerr]

Look at H2S, cheap and reliable better than stabbing.

 

[spinningmyself]

seems kind of hard to me cause of the ribcage so proper placing could be hard, don't know though, i am dumb. i guess it's still possible though

Idk it seems like people get killed by being stabbed in the heart and or chest area. I would definitely look up the best places to go for if I have to go that way for myself. I know whatever way I will have to go is going to be painful but I have really come to expect nothing less from this life. At least then it will be all over.

 

[CW36]

i don't think i can afford a better method. i only have $73 USD right now. every day i feel worse and worse and more and more hopeless and think about the fact we all die in the end anyways and there is nothing after as well. thinking about just going into the kitchen when home alone, taking the largest, sharpest knife, and cutting and stabbing deep into my throat trying to sever the carotid artery/jugular vein and trying to ignore the pain. i don't know what else to do. i am desperate. i also have a full bottle of ritalin but i'm not sure if it will do much if i take all of it

If you can afford a knife then you can afford at least ten better methods. Cutting and stabbing is one of the worst.

 

[grendel4578]

If you can afford a knife then you can afford at least ten better methods. Cutting and stabbing is one of the worst.

well the knife was free i guess since its just here cause my parents got it. what methods do you have in store?

 

[CW36]

well the knife was free i guess since its just here cause my parents got it. what methods do you have in store?

Water's free, ropes a lot less than the said 73, hi high buildings are free, moving trains and cars are free. All of these methods and more are better than stabbing and that's based on fact.

 

[grendel4578]

Water's free, ropes a lot less than the said 73, hi high buildings are free, moving trains and cars are free. All of these methods and more are better than stabbing and that's based on fact.

I suppose I could get rope, but I'm not sure what I'd do to hang myself properly, and if I get hit by a car it may not be fatal, and a car/train could stop. I suppose I could drown myself or try to jump off a building. I also don't think my ceiling is high enough to hang myself properly. I am sorry for being so stupid

 

[CW36]

I suppose I could get rope, but I'm not sure what I'd do to hang myself properly, and if I get hit by a car it may not be fatal, and a car/train could stop. I suppose I could drown myself or try to jump off a building. I also don't think my ceiling is high enough to hang myself properly. I am sorry for being so stupid

Don't be sorry, it's an overwhelming subject at first. When you find your method and are confident in the plan, then it'll be a huge weight off your shoulders. Yes, I wouldn't recommend hanging unless you can do full suspension, although trees are always available. But anything is better than knives. I'd read Suicide and Assisted Suicide, that'll give you a better picture of the options and the pros and cons.

 

[Terramoro]

I think if I have to use a knife to ctb I would most likely go for my heart. If I drink enough to get goofy I could get a big enough knife and just go for it that way. It might end up being my way if I am not able to get it done the way I have been thinking/planning on.

From what I've seen hitting a heart is hard (person had to pick around and the receiving one died only after a minute). If you don't hit your heart then you will slowly bleed to death which isn't great. Even if you succeed with hitting the heart, then your brain will still function for a few extra seconds, which just prolongs it. You can't really feel where the ribs are and you don't really have the best sight on it. if you drink or do anything to sedate yourself, then the chance that you will not succeed grows even bigger.