Venting getting kicked out soon, no support

[Marz]

won't play the victim all the way here, i had it coming. the only thing i needed to be allowed to live here was to not fail college. i did and now i'm getting kicked out. problem is, i have nowhere to go. i have no job because of my MI. i just want to get done with dying. main reason why i flunked this semester honestly. i'm totally alone. i know i deserve it. i know the solution is to kill myself so i stop being a burden. i just wish, like a dwindling flame, that i were enough. strong enough, mature enough, smart enough. anything else than what i am. i wonder if that way i would have another chance- but i ran out of time.

 

[Alchemist]

Don't you have a place where you can crash for a while. On which country are you?

 

[omoidarui]

how could they do that to you?

 

[IronTusk]

Sorry man....

 

[hamednova]

won't play the victim all the way here, i had it coming. the only thing i needed to be allowed to live here was to not fail college. i did and now i'm getting kicked out. problem is, i have nowhere to go. i have no job because of my MI. i just want to get done with dying. main reason why i flunked this semester honestly. i'm totally alone. i know i deserve it. i know the solution is to kill myself so i stop being a burden. i just wish, like a dwindling flame, that i were enough. strong enough, mature enough, smart enough. anything else than what i am. i wonder if that way i would have another chance- but i ran out of time.

Have they started the eviction papers? Do you have sodium nitrite? IF you REALLY need to die you can take sn in a back of an allyway, shit way to go but its peaceful.

 

[JadedGray]

This would be my worse nightmare. I'm sorry, I can't imagine the urgency to CTB you must be going through. If I was facing eviction I would probably do something stupid in the moment from the sheer panic, like jump from a bridge or building, even if it wasn't high enough.

 

[itsallover]

Dude thats an easy problem to solve. Either enroll at a community collegeif you were at a four year and if that doesn't work join the military. I would join but im physically sick. Itll toughen the shit out of you and give you purpose. I hate to see young people die. Trump hasn't gottenis into war yet whichi expected right at the beginning, but it looks safe now with these Republicans. Pm if you wanna talk. I absolutely hated school too.

 

[Alchemist]

Dude thats an easy problem to solve. Either enroll at a community collegeif you were at a four year and if that doesn't work join the military. I would join but im physically sick. Itll toughen the shit out of you and give you purpose. I hate to see young people die. Trump hasn't gottenis into war yet whichi expected right at the beginning, but it looks safe now with these Republicans. Pm if you wanna talk. I absolutely hated school too.

Except she isn't American, you know. Pretty sure she's on the opposite side of the continent.

 

[itsallover]

Except she isn't American, you know. Pretty sure she's on the opposite side of the continent.

Oh my bad sounded like a dude im sorry but i would fight for my life if young and healthy somehow.

 

[ouvreyes]

I completely feel for you, in a bit of a similar situation here. Hope things work out, whatever direction you take.

 

[AutumnEmbers]

I'm so sorry you're in this situation and wish I had more to offer you than just my empathy.

i'm totally alone. i know i deserve it.

No one deserves to be alone. You don't deserve any of this.

 

[Marz]

welp, they gave me this week to leave. thinking of ending it tomorrow.

 

[Alchemist]

welp, they gave me this week to leave. thinking of ending it tomorrow.

That's horrible, I wish you the best.

 

[JoeFailure]

You're very young, and plenty of people do fine without college.

Are there any shelters you can go to or anything like that while you try to get a job or anything? I'd hate for you to end it because of these current circumstances when you still have your whole life ahead of you. I don't know if that's the whole thing though or if there are any other things going on.

 

[Marz]

You're very young, and plenty of people do fine without college.

Are there any shelters you can go to or anything like that while you try to get a job or anything? I'd hate for you to end it because of these current circumstances when you still have your whole life ahead of you. I don't know if that's the whole thing though or if there are any other things going on.

I'm an immigrant and I'm getting kicked out and sent off to where my mother lives where she is also an immigrant and she's struggling economically over there. No I cannot go back to my home country either. I'm actually past being angry or sad. I don't feel a single thing.

Except she isn't American, you know. Pretty sure she's on the opposite side of the continent.

I'm Venezuelan living in Argentina. Yes indeed.

 

[hamednova]

I'm an immigrant and I'm getting kicked out and sent off to where my mother lives where she is also an immigrant and she's struggling economically over there. No I cannot go back to my home country either. I'm actually past being angry or sad. I don't feel a single thing.

I'm Venezuelan living in Argentina. Yes indeed.

Woah, have you tied applying for refugee status? Also a lot of drugs to ctb can be had in south America for cheap. Sodium nitrite is the cheapest and most peaceful at this price point.

 

[Alchemist]

I'm an immigrant and I'm getting kicked out and sent off to where my mother lives where she is also an immigrant and she's struggling economically over there. No I cannot go back to my home country either. I'm actually past being angry or sad. I don't feel a single thing.

I'm Venezuelan living in Argentina. Yes indeed.

Damn! I'd ctb too if I had to live in Venezuela too.