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notmyusername
Da Fan of Stuffs
- Feb 1, 2024
- 23
I'm getting high tonight. Idk where else to talk about it other than here. I realized I use this drug because I can't handle my emotions. I realized it a while ago.
I've been annoying. I've been overzealous recently with my boyfriend. I think it's been annoying him. I've been talking too much and I've been a mess. I take drugs to shut me the fuck up sometimes. Anybody else do that? I gotta chill the fuck out and this is the only way I know how to do make myself calm right away.
He asked me to lay off the DXM last night, or be more careful. I'm doing my highest dose yet tonight. And I like to mix it with Benadryl. Which is even more unhealthy. I am a shitty person. I just ignored his words completely. I want to be around him but I don't want him to realize I'm high. But who even cares. Who cares if he gets mad at me? I do. I'll be heartbroken but at the same time I don't care. I know I am such an asshole.
I don't care if this stuff kills me either. I want to rest. Who fucking cares is all I can think.
I've been annoying. I've been overzealous recently with my boyfriend. I think it's been annoying him. I've been talking too much and I've been a mess. I take drugs to shut me the fuck up sometimes. Anybody else do that? I gotta chill the fuck out and this is the only way I know how to do make myself calm right away.
He asked me to lay off the DXM last night, or be more careful. I'm doing my highest dose yet tonight. And I like to mix it with Benadryl. Which is even more unhealthy. I am a shitty person. I just ignored his words completely. I want to be around him but I don't want him to realize I'm high. But who even cares. Who cares if he gets mad at me? I do. I'll be heartbroken but at the same time I don't care. I know I am such an asshole.
I don't care if this stuff kills me either. I want to rest. Who fucking cares is all I can think.