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lackadazeE
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- Jul 29, 2023
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My dad came home and he immediately asked if I got any word back about jobs when I just applied yesterday and when I said I hadn't yet applied for more jobs he said "you can't sit on the couch and be a lazy fat blob of shit for the rest of your life" and went on about how I leave a mess everywhere I go as if I didn't just clean the dishes and fold my laundry even if I clean he's still gonna get made fuck this what is the point of anything? I'm so fucking tired of it all
why is life just forcing yourself to find an unfulfilling job with shitty pay day in day out on repeat until you die? Why did I have to be born into a family that doesn't respect me, my beliefs, my "passions", my boundaries, and my identity
For a year now my family has been pressuring me about getting a job and going to college and I've tried but I'm just so tired and don't even want a job. I feel like there isn't any choice but to end it all at this point but I don't think I could do that to my only friend who's in the same boat as me
I wish I was prepared more for the real world I wish I wasn't born so fucked then I could've actually functioned properly in society but no I'm saddled with depression, anxiety, dysphoria, and autism, and so much shit it just isn't fair and nobody accommodates me
My family hates me for it. I hate myself. This all really got away from the main point. I guess if anyone has any advice. I've looked for jobs online and have applied to many but have gotten ghosted/rejected by all of them. I've only had one job in my life and I was so miserable there I kept skipping work since I couldn't quit til I graduated high school. And now that I'm out of school I wish I could just go back it was way simpler. People actually cared about me and I felt like I was actually doing shit with my life rather than living up to everything my dad says about me.
Sorry this is such a mess I've just finished crying and my head hurts so bad.
why is life just forcing yourself to find an unfulfilling job with shitty pay day in day out on repeat until you die? Why did I have to be born into a family that doesn't respect me, my beliefs, my "passions", my boundaries, and my identity
For a year now my family has been pressuring me about getting a job and going to college and I've tried but I'm just so tired and don't even want a job. I feel like there isn't any choice but to end it all at this point but I don't think I could do that to my only friend who's in the same boat as me
I wish I was prepared more for the real world I wish I wasn't born so fucked then I could've actually functioned properly in society but no I'm saddled with depression, anxiety, dysphoria, and autism, and so much shit it just isn't fair and nobody accommodates me
My family hates me for it. I hate myself. This all really got away from the main point. I guess if anyone has any advice. I've looked for jobs online and have applied to many but have gotten ghosted/rejected by all of them. I've only had one job in my life and I was so miserable there I kept skipping work since I couldn't quit til I graduated high school. And now that I'm out of school I wish I could just go back it was way simpler. People actually cared about me and I felt like I was actually doing shit with my life rather than living up to everything my dad says about me.
Sorry this is such a mess I've just finished crying and my head hurts so bad.