Geez i

[ornitier199]

I just realed how there is literally no other site like this out there
everywhere i look and nothing.
i never been so alone in my endeavor before its gonna be a long painful 40 years of slow dying and crying lets face im too much of a SLUG to even kill myself im in too much agony to even do that

im too old for the partners thread anyways i really wish i had a gun right now ive woukdve shot nyself before even so much as thinking to write this. somebody kill me help me die please((

 

[wilted_biography]

I hear and feel your pure agony…

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish that suicide is easier. It is so unfair how it is difficult to leave this world. Living really is so painful, and I know that it can be awful feeling trapped in such a horrible life. To me it is terrifying the thought of suffering until old age. I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation.

 

[Tmbass]

i never been so alone in my endeavor before its gonna be a long painful 40 years of slow dying and crying lets face im too much of a SLUG to even kill myself im in too much agony to even do that

I know that feeling. I browse this site often and have looked at every big suicide method there is, but of all the times i've half assed and failed, I just know i'll never be able to do it. Not being able to buy a gun just sucks. Knowing i'll be here pissing around for another 50 years is just as depressing as what caused it in the first place.

 

[Judy Garland]

I too am in 38 years of agony and pain. I don't know why I'm waiting to use my SN. I'm afraid, because I know it's not an easy "switch off" button for my body. My body has to go through a process once I take the SN which I have to feel. I'm afraid that I'm going to be in more pain. I'm afraid of what comes after though I shouldn't be, but I am. I'm afraid that I am going to give those dark things more of my pain...and I can't handle it. I've given them enough. I gave them too much. I hope I didn't give them my death too.

 

[ornitier199]

I don't know why I mentioned partners, another mistake. one for me anyway, but that is not here.
It's a thing needed done alone, so much for this current method, I just feel physical pain but not actually dying from it, or at least it hasn't happened yet, and that is killing me without killing me.