It's been two or so months since my last attempt. I tried to get better but life's gotten worse. I got everything I need to full suspension the only catch is I have to do it tonight or I lose the opportunity. I'm staying at my parents house while they visit my newborn nephew in another state. There's a forest behind the house. Perfect. They get home tomorrow evening. The only catch is my sister is here. She's asleep. I don't know if I can leave her to be the one to find my note. Gunna take my stuff and walk out into the woods. Maybe I come back or maybe not
happysunnydayy
Member
- Mar 18, 2025
- 20
I just got back and honestly I just chickened out, I have schizophrenia along with some other shit so being out in the woods I didn't feel safe and I thought the devil was gunna take my soul or some crazy shit. I ended up going back to my parents house though now I'm convinced something followed me back
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 41,404
deadbidaylight
And the sun will set for you
- Feb 27, 2025
- 349
There is nothing wrong with changing your mind. There will always be more opportunities if you decide to try again. But tonight was clearly not your time to go. There is no weakness in that. I'm glad you're still here.
I promise nothing followed you back. It's not easy to listen to outsiders opinions, but schizophrenia is an evil disease and obviously can convince you that things that aren't real are in fact real.
I hope that you're okay. Are you still alone or is your sister awake now?
I just got back home today and I am ready to try again. It's less scary now that I know my sister won't be the one to find me, however I will have to do partial suspension which I find to be more unreliable. I view my room as being a safe space so I know I won't have to push past delusions, my only concern is in the reliability of doing partial. I don't fear the end it is simply my only option. I don't see living in a hospital as a life, and maybe some people would rather that but for me I am simply rotting away. Medication doesn't work, I'm not safe to live on my own, I can't feed myself, can't take care of myself, I can't work or pay my bills, I have no quality of life. If anyone has any suggestions for partial suspension it would be much appreciated.
manythanks
New Member
- Mar 18, 2025
- 4
Honestly absolutely the same being suddenly chronically disabled is a torture that I've never thought could happen to me so early but here I am with my only option. I'll be doing full suspension, but as for partial I've read that you have to apply more force to succeed, but i can't be shure honestly. I wish you the best, the life can be very very cruel to some of us but we should be stronger.
Ixtab69
Member
- Mar 13, 2025
- 35
don't do anything impulsive unless you want to end up in a much worse place having to spend the rest of your life in a veggie kind of state...on-the-spur-of -the-moment hangings are easily and frequently botched with horrifying outcomes and aftermaths
Y'all I found the sweet spot!! I tested it but I got so scared that right before I passed out I struggled my way out of it. I think I was out for a few minutes, I had music playing and two songs had passed since the one I had put on. I have my method now, I tested the strength and everything so I know I won't be able to save myself and it won't break while I'm out. I'll share the method in another post, my plan is to do it tomorrow when I'm not drunk because it really fucks with your gag reflex. I did it y'all, I found a way to end it all, I am so happy
