Venting Fuckkkk.

[_smile_]

I'm a fucking mess.
I thought I could recover.
I just don't think I'm meant to.
I have accomplished everything I've wanted to in life.
Why can't I just be done???
I should be able to choose whether I live or die.

My only available method at the moment is a gun. And I do not want any of my loved ones to find me, and at the same time, I do not want my loved ones to think I've gone "missing."

I'm SO afraid to order SN again.

I'd sell a kidney for N…

Maybe I need to start praying or some shit. Find a way to turn things around. Idk.

 

[hopeless302]

Recovery is possible. Maybe there's a way to turn things around. Maybe there are more things in life that you could accomplish. Maybe there are things that may bring you happiness which you haven't encountered yet. Maybe there are people out there who will motivate you and add meaning to your life. I hope you can get through this storm.

 

[_smile_]

Recovery is possible. Maybe there's a way to turn things around. Maybe there are more things in life that you could accomplish. Maybe there are things that may bring you happiness which you haven't encountered yet. Maybe there are people out there who will motivate you and add meaning to your life. I hope you can get through this storm.

Thank you for your sweet words

 

[MeltingBrain]

What do you suffer from ?

 

[Rack.-]

From what I've read I personally don't think that you want everything to end. Have you talked with your relatives about your feelings? Opening up to them might be the best way to start moving the wheel again! After all, it's your family who knows you the most

 

[Nights]

Try finding out what's the problem, analyze yourself, your feelings, potential causes for your feelings, your past, your friends and people around you, after you figure out the reason for why you feel like this then you can take proper action towards your feelings

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

If you have accomplished everything you wanted to and are still not happy, perhaps you need to stop chasing after things and trying to find happiness in the little things, in the experiences themselves
i mean i cant manage to do that but maybe you can

 

[FuneralCry]

I also wish for Nembutal, I find it so horrible how it's not more easily accessible for those who suffer, it would prevent so much unnecessary torment if people have that option. But anyway it does sound tiring what you have to endure, I wish you the best, it's certainly such a dreadful world we exist in where there is all this endless suffering being experienced.

 

[just_so_done]

My Miles of Smiles, I'm sorry you're in so much pain and i wish more than anything I could lessen that for you. Whether you choose to ctb or to try and make some changes in your life, know that I'm here for you, we're all here for you. Thinking of you and you can always pm me

 

[MrDarkness]

If your afraid of your love ones finding you. You still have purpose. It's your choice to stop living. But remember you will have a impact on those around you. Keep fighting bro

 

[_smile_]

My Miles of Smiles, I'm sorry you're in so much pain and i wish more than anything I could lessen that for you. Whether you choose to ctb or to try and make some changes in your life, know that I'm here for you, we're all here for you. Thinking of you and you can always pm me

I adore you so much. Thank you, JSD you are such a beautiful person and I appreciate you.

 

[dimstar]

I hope it's just part of the ups and downs of being alive, sorry your feeling stuck so far down. I wish chosing death was more accepted and peaceful. I'm worried about hurting my family to or trying to do it in the least painful way possible too.

Maybe it's time to take a vacation to Mexico? Relax.. maybe find n. Just having the option is comforting.

What ever your going through you got people here in your corner. Hope the load of life gets a little lighter for you.