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marypary1234
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- Nov 14, 2023
- 13
Hello everyone,
I have been using this site many hours everyday since I joined. I try to find a way to go, but its so hard. I have tried night night, partial hanging and pills (stupid, yes I know). Its no tall buildings or anything i can jump from where I live. I can not get a gun (its strict in my country) or SN.
I have struggled with anxiety and depression almost all my life and its getting worse everyday. I am fucked in everyway, dont have money (but lots of debt) or friends (anymore). No contact with family. Can not buy anything to try CtB. I know you can not give me advice about what to do... I really dont know why I am writing this, probably need to vent a little.
But why does it have to be so hard to die???? I really dont know what to do.. i am desperate..
I have been using this site many hours everyday since I joined. I try to find a way to go, but its so hard. I have tried night night, partial hanging and pills (stupid, yes I know). Its no tall buildings or anything i can jump from where I live. I can not get a gun (its strict in my country) or SN.
I have struggled with anxiety and depression almost all my life and its getting worse everyday. I am fucked in everyway, dont have money (but lots of debt) or friends (anymore). No contact with family. Can not buy anything to try CtB. I know you can not give me advice about what to do... I really dont know why I am writing this, probably need to vent a little.
But why does it have to be so hard to die???? I really dont know what to do.. i am desperate..