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[Yomyom]

I'm going fucking insane, I don't want to live why do I live, why this fucking N not dissolving to the water, why I feel like I can't take it why why why!!!!!!!!!!, I want to scream why im so coward im fucking crazy, it was supposed to be my last day, but I lost every piece of courage

I don't want to live
I don't want to live
I don't want this fucking life it's a nightmare, I have no idea what I should do now and there is no answer and I'm going crazy from it.

I was so sure I have the courage so sure on that, but now nothing

 

[Isadeth]

For n, it's usually easier to mix properly if the container you're using has a lid and you can shake it. Stirring will take quite a bit. I'm sorry you're enduring such mental anguish. ♡
and to add, you can always change your mind at any point. Xx

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Maybe just leave it for today and wait for a time when you feel calmer? It doesn't sound like you're quite ready. It's ok to change your mind

Also remember, you are lucky to even have n. Not everyone has that luxury

 

[Joey]

I'd wait it out and make sure to not act what you'll regret on.

 

[Yomyom]

I don't know if to through it away or not, I have F so I guess I'll use that next time that I hope it will be so soon....

 

[Joey]

I don't know if to through it away or not, I have F so I guess I'll use that next time that I hope it will be so soon....

I'd throw it away man. If you do have F, just use that when you feel like you're 100% ready. Never do things on impulse.

Once done, there's no going back.

 

[RedDEE]

Don't throw away perfectly good drugs!!! The water can be evaporated and the drugs recovered!!

 

[Aap]

It won't dissolve much at all in water. It's typically drunk as a suspension. Even with alcohol and peg, it is still clearly in suspension in the Swiss vids.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I suggest don't throw it away until you research whether mixing it in water changes the chemical composition.

 

[Aap]

It can be dried on a plate with a fan and reused. The length of time in the water isn't significant in the hours or even days range (or even longer). Letting it dry on a plate will result in everything drying/recrystalizing.

 

[whywere]

Please set it aside for now, regroup your thoughts, take a deep breath and think. Like other posts on here NO second chances. WE all think and feel for our global family here and whatever you decide, PLEASE do it after rethinking and calming down first. I, for one, would be deeply hurt if you made a wrong decision, whatever that is for you.

 

[dec132013]

Better changing your mind before drinking it than after

 

[psychoticxerror]

I hope you're doing okay. We just want you to make the best decision for yourself, no matter what that might be.

 

[Deleted member 4993]

Are you sure that is N powder, it doesn't look in anyway similar to what I have tested over the years
And yes I have a few batches stored

 

[Yomyom]

Are you sure that is N powder, it doesn't look in anyway similar to what I have tested over the years
And yes I have a few batches stored

It is, I added simple syrup and Sachrine to help with the taste according a recipe I saw

 

[Deleted member 4993]

That is most likely the problem and has caused it to curdle and clump beyond recognition bless you

 

[Yomyom]

That is most likely the problem and has caused it to curdle and clump beyond recognition bless you

Could be, I know I was supposed to add alcohol and Propylene glycol, but if I remember correct I read that I don't need them, only the syrup and water

 

[Deleted member 4993]

It's best to stick to the simple method of using water but everyone makes their own choice bless you

 

[rt1989526]

Are you sure that is N powder, it doesn't look in anyway similar to what I have tested over the years
And yes I have a few batches stored

Soooo, willing to part ways with one of these batches by any chance?? Haha