Venting Fuck!!!

[Fyrinne]

I hate how futile this all is... I hate that I can't bring myself to do anything, to take any steps... I can't get a fucking gun, I can't hang myself... I'm just fucking stuck here and the whole fucking world sucks! I hate that I fucked up the one thing in it that was ever worth living for, and I can't FUCKING DIE!

I can't eat, I cry every day, I can barely get out of bed... JUST FUCKING LET ME DIE ALREADY! Why?! Why do I have to be here anymore...

 

[Tiburcio]

I spit on all the people who puts us obstacles and forces us to live, no matter of how bad we are feeling. They all should be considered criminals for torturing others.

 

[Empty Smile]

We all ask that same question every day bud. We feel the same way.

 

[Fyrinne]

Plenty of people here seem to at least have a plan in place. To be able to drive themselves to take the steps to do it... I can't...

I can't take a slow death, I just need a gun... An instant moment to just end it all...

 

[Empty Smile]

Plenty of people here seem to at least have a plan in place. To be able to drive themselves to take the steps to do it... I can't...

I can't take a slow death, I just need a gun... An instant moment to just end it all...

Yes, a lot of us have a plan in place, I agree. But making sure your plan works, whatever it may be, is a different story.

 

[Fyrinne]

I can't even get that far... I can't make myself do anything... Just lay here and fucking hate the world...

 

[hopeis5427]

lucky you .Im in a environment where i cant commit suicide even if i tried.

 

[shadow11]

I hate how futile this all is... I hate that I can't bring myself to do anything, to take any steps... I can't get a fucking gun, I can't hang myself... I'm just fucking stuck here and the whole fucking world sucks! I hate that I fucked up the one thing in it that was ever worth living for, and I can't FUCKING DIE!

I can't eat, I cry every day, I can barely get out of bed... JUST FUCKING LET ME DIE ALREADY! Why?! Why do I have to be here anymore...

Same way I feel

 

[Fyrinne]

lucky you .Im in a environment where i cant commit suicide even if i tried.

Having the freedom and being trapped anyway isn't better... I wish I had the will...

 

[hopeis5427]

Having the freedom and being trapped anyway isn't better... I wish I had the will...

well if you dont have the will then your not ready yet .When your ready for suicide you wont feel the fear,the fear means that theres something holding you back.

 

[shadow11]

well if you dont have the will then your not ready yet .When your ready for suicide you wont feel the fear,the fear means that theres something holding you back.

I have the will but I have the fear of not succeeding and being locked up in a mental unit

 

[Fyrinne]

well if you dont have the will then your not ready yet .When your ready for suicide you wont feel the fear,the fear means that theres something holding you back.

Bullshit! God, I fucking hate people who say this... It's just like the fucking people outside of this place! I thought I could fucking escape that stupid shit here...

 

[Fyrinne]

I have the will but I have the fear of not succeeding and being locked up in a mental unit

Yup, this is a huge part of it.

But also, I just don't have the willpower to get up and do anything, and I don't want to end up in excruciating pain. If I wanted pain, I wouldn't want to die...

 

[hopeis5427]

Bullshit! God, I fucking hate people who say this... It's just like the fucking people outside of this place! I thought I could fucking escape that stupid shit here...

i dont understand why i am being attacked like this.The reason why i said this is from my experience is because when i first thought of suicide i feelt fear but now that i am sure i feel calm.I meant no harm or anything mean.

 

[Empty Smile]

Bullshit! God, I fucking hate people who say this... It's just like the fucking people outside of this place! I thought I could fucking escape that stupid shit here...

Calm down bud. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. No reason to go bat shit crazy just because you disagree. We all hear shit we don't want to hear.

 

[Fyrinne]

i dont understand why i am being attacked like this.The reason why i said this is from my experience is because when i first thought of suicide i feelt fear but now that i am sure i feel calm.I meant no harm or anything mean.

Turns out, you're not everyone else! Your experiences are not my experiences. Your reasons aren't my reasons, and the fact that people can't fucking see that is a big part of why most of us are here in the first place!

 

[Empty Smile]

Well, I tried.....

 

[No Future]

well if you dont have the will then your not ready yet .When your ready for suicide you wont feel the fear,the fear means that theres something holding you back.

No - the fear means you are human.