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Gothsinner

Gothsinner

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Ugh why is suicide so fucking difficult. It is so hard. Borderline impossibel. Being successful has the same rate as winning the lottery in every country at the same time. Fuck this stupid fucking evolved survival fucking piece of shit body. Also warning, NIGHT NIGHT IS fake it doesn't work. Fuck this. I can't kill myself. Literally fuck.
 
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Spitfire

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Ugh why is suicide so fucking difficult. It is so hard. Borderline impossibel. Being successful has the same rate as winning the lottery in every country at the same time. Fuck this stupid fucking evolved survival fucking piece of shit body. Also warning, NIGHT NIGHT IS fake it doesn't work. Fuck this. I can't kill myself. Literally fuck.

More 'research'
 
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More 'research'
I've read every single post on this site about every method. Ive been researching for 8 years and reading for more. I've been trying to find my carotid for 11 years and only get the exploding head. So with all due respect don't give me that need to do more research bullshit.
 
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Spitfire

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It is not BS
 
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yive

yive

life is evil
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i feel you, bro. i really hate life too!
 
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i feel you, bro. i really hate life too!
I wish it was as easy as pressing a lightswitch. These sarcastic know it all pricks on here don't help :(
 
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Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
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The carotid arteries are generally easy to find by palpating, but a cheap stethoscope would also help you find them easily.
I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time.
 
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The carotid arteries are generally easy to find by palpating, but a cheap stethoscope would also help you find them easily.
I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time.
The thing is I feel my neck I feel the pulse but I press down on the exact spot the pulse is coming from and nothingis there. I press down and deeper into my neck and nothing. Whenever I hung myself I would only get the exploding head shit. So I'm convinced I'm not fucking human
 
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Ugh why is suicide so fucking difficult. It is so hard. Borderline impossibel. Being successful has the same rate as winning the lottery in every country at the same time. Fuck this stupid fucking evolved survival fucking piece of shit body. Also warning, NIGHT NIGHT IS fake it doesn't work. Fuck this. I can't kill myself. Literally fuck.

What else have you tried?
SI can be dealt with drugs.
 
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The thing is I feel my neck I feel the pulse but I press down on the exact spot the pulse is coming from and nothingis there. I press down and deeper into my neck and nothing. Whenever I hung myself I would only get the exploding head shit. So I'm convinced I'm not fucking human

Keep trying seriously. It is there and can be blocked. I am sorry.
 
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yive

life is evil
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I wish it was as easy as pressing a lightswitch. These sarcastic know it all pricks on here don't help :(
our parents threw us into this hellish prison, where we were not given the right to an instant and painless exit. i hate this slavery. i so fucking want someone or something to kill me
 
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Gothsinner

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What else have you tried?
SI can be dealt with drugs.
I have so many attempts under ym belt. I have no Survival instinct anymore. I tried to hang myself around 8 times this is partial. Only got the exploding head feeling or no feeling at all. I tried overdosing on almost everything. I don't even pass out. I just feel better the next day. I've slit my wrists 4 times. A couple of times it was so deep I needed 28 stitches on my arm. No where near me is high enough to jump from. I live in the country where the train station is too far away. And night night I feel explosion again. I'm fucking immortal at this point
Keep trying seriously. It is there and can be blocked. I am sorry.
8 years of trying is enough. I feel the Exact spot the pulse is coming from and I push in and go really really deep, and then eventually find the oesophagus. And I'm 100% sure the pulse isn't in there. I've done all I physically can to find it.
What else have you tried?
SI can be dealt with drugs.
Oh yeah and fucking stupid gun laws UK here
 
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Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
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The thing is I feel my neck I feel the pulse but I press down on the exact spot the pulse is coming from and nothingis there. I press down and deeper into my neck and nothing. Whenever I hung myself I would only get the exploding head shit. So I'm convinced I'm not fucking human
Have you tried just testing by using your fingers to hold down both carotid arteries to see if you can get to the point of passing out? It does sound like you're getting the veins closed off but not the arteries which would explain the exploding head feeling. Partial isn't my chosen method so I'm not too familiar with the dynamics of it exactly, I'm just in the medical field so anatomy comes naturally.
 
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x~Sophia~x

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Well if it wasn't I would be dead.
Someone come over and fucking stab me in the chest 58 times.
Hey, don't take your frustrations out on Spitfire :O
 
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Have you tried just testing by using your fingers to hold down both carotid arteries to see if you can get to the point of passing out? It does sound like you're getting the veins closed off but not the arteries which would explain the exploding head feeling. Partial isn't my chosen method so I'm not too familiar with the dynamics of it exactly, I'm just in the medical field so anatomy comes naturally.
Yes I've tried every method to feel it, both hands, cupping hands, fingertips, scarfs, dorrhandles, palm squeezing. Still fuck all
 
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I have so many attempts under ym belt. I have no Survival instinct anymore. I tried to hang myself around 8 times this is partial. Only got the exploding head feeling or no feeling at all. I tried overdosing on almost everything. I don't even pass out. I just feel better the next day. I've slit my wrists 4 times. A couple of times it was so deep I needed 28 stitches on my arm. No where near me is high enough to jump from. I live in the country where the train station is too far away. And night night I feel explosion again. I'm fucking immortal at this point

8 years of trying is enough. I feel the Exact spot the pulse is coming from and I push in and go really really deep, and then eventually find the oesophagus. And I'm 100% sure the pulse isn't in there. I've done all I physically can to find it.
I am not comparing, but just letting you know.. me too. Stitches for both radial arteries man. I did it correctly, and went for the neck arteries with a scalpel and it did not work out.
 
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Hey, don't take your frustrations out on Spitfire :O
I'm not I simply stated I don't need to do more research.
I am not comparing, but just letting you know.. me too. Stitches for both radial arteries man. I did it correctly, and went for the neck arteries with a scalpel and it did not work out.
So sorry to hear that :(
our parents threw us into this hellish prison, where we were not given the right to an instant and painless exit. i hate this slavery. i so fucking want someone or something to kill me
Sorry I missed your comment but I agree 100% it's bullshit that we are expected to last 100 years when some people dont function in life. Like me.
 
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Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
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8 years of trying is enough. I feel the Exact spot the pulse is coming from and I push in and go really really deep, and then eventually find the oesophagus. And I'm 100% sure the pulse isn't in there. I've done all I physically can to find it.
If you've found the pulse, you've found the artery, you won't physically feel it beyond that. Sorry if that's not what you meant though. It doesn't take too much pressure to close it off but you have to do both sides simultaneously.
 
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If you've found the pulse, you've found the artery, you won't physically feel it beyond that. Sorry if that's not what you meant though. It doesn't take too much pressure to close it off but you have to do both sides simultaneously.
I do both sides, and feel nothing except a pulse in my fingers or palms, so I press harder still nothing. Occasionally I get the stupid explode head. But apart from that both sides equal no vision blur pass out, or any difficulties.
 
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Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
Apr 19, 2020
258
I do both sides, and feel nothing except a pulse in my fingers or palms, so I press harder still nothing. Occasionally I get the stupid explode head. But apart from that both sides equal no vision blur pass out, or any difficulties.
Gosh, maybe your arteries have become superhuman then. Again, I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. I hope you find some kind of peace and comfort.
 
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Gosh, maybe your arteries have become superhuman then. Again, I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time. I hope you find some kind of peace and comfort.
This is why I'm so frustrated and in so much despair in tears because I have no way out. If I knew I could hang myself, or something I would feel peaceful. Knowing its there for me. But surviving everything and having 0 choice really fucks me up
This is why I'm so frustrated and in so much despair in tears because I have no way out. If I knew I could hang myself, or something I would feel peaceful. Knowing its there for me. But surviving everything and having 0 choice really fucks me up
I just wanna be gone so bad, I'm so desperate I can feel the agony in my chest. Why am I cursed to live :(
 
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I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. I've had the exploding head feeling too, it really sucks. I read somewhere that even if it's in the right place you'd eventually feel that because of the pressure, so apparently you have to put more of your weight into it and quickly to pass out first? (pls someone correct me if I'm wrong here)
 
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demuic

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Have you not considered CO method?
 
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What? Are u kiding? If he's here, he knows what he's doing, I don't encourage him to do anything

What about demunic so? Sorry if u feel sensitive ^^
It goes for everyone but I was singling you out
 
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