Yeah, I fucking agree, people say I understand and it will get better, what pisses me off the most is that some motherfuckers have ruined your life and when you cant bare the pain and just want to go, people say shit like you can get through this, your strong, fucker dont you think I have tried suicide wasnt the first choice, but you get to a point where 1) your in to much pain, like you are in agony inside 2) your to tired, you genuinely cant try anymore 3) no matter how much you hide it from the world, you cant hide it from yourself, you smile outside but scream inside, it's like being a criminal, sentenced to a life imprisonment in your own head and soul, with having to relive every bit of trauma daily, with no respite.