Venting Fuck my life

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Nothing is going well. As some of you may already know, I got a 1-month medical leave because I couldn't stand being at my job anymore, where they treat me badly and I work long hours. Over the year I've been there, my mental health has started to deteriorate. So I took this month off to rest and also to see if I could get another job. Depression didn't help but I managed to go to some interviews there and was really excited about one job. I felt that I was getting better because of the medication and that this possible job was giving me some motivation and hope that things would change for the better. And I felt it was just what I needed, that the people seemed to be nice and I had the feeling that I had gotten the job. But no, today I was told that I didn't get the job. I was really unmotivated. I feel like I'm destined to be stuck at my old job and now on Wednesday I have to go back there. So I'm never going to be okay again :( I'm fed up. I really hate my life. I don't deserve this. I swear I was trying hard to get out of this hole but this way I can't.
Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this. I'm just not fine.

 

[sharky]

That sucks. You definitely deserve something positive in your life and I can relate a lot. I'm stuck at a job that I hate as well and feel trapped in. Life is so unfair most of the time. I used to think that when you really want something and are a decent human being, that you'll eventually get what you want. But it doesn't work that way

Unfortunately I can't say anything that will help you but if you can, try again. I mean in the end there's nothing we can do except try or give up. It's ok to fail, no shame in that. Well I wish you the best and that luck will find you soon

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

That sucks. You definitely deserve something positive in your life and I can relate a lot. I'm stuck at a job that I hate as well and feel trapped in. Life is so unfair most of the time. I used to think that when you really want something and are a decent human being, that you'll eventually get what you want. But it doesn't work that way

Unfortunately I can't say anything that will help you but if you can, try again. I mean in the end there's nothing we can do except try or give up. It's ok to fail, no shame in that. Well I wish you the best and that luck will find you soon

Thank you for your kind words and I am sorry that you are also in the same situation. It's a horrible situation to be. I don't want to give up but I feel powerless, at least for now. I hope things get better for both of us.

 

[Crazy4u]

Looking for a job sucks unless you have strong connections. It is not your fault. Good luck

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Looking for a job sucks unless you have strong connections. It is not your fault. Good luck

Thank you. I need it.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I agree that you really don't deserve this and I hope that things can improve somehow, even if not immediately. I wish I could think of better words now but can't seem to. You shouldn't have to give up your mental health for a job. I'm sorry life has been so hard and painful for you, I truly hope things can improve and you can find happiness since you deserve it.

 

[Lullaby]

I'm so sorry. It's really frustrating when you're in a crappy position, then you see a light at the end of the tunnel and it just disappears. It sucks and it makes it hard to keep going.

I really hope things turn around and you can get away from this job. I was working at places I constantly hated and I left. Now I'm about to go to a dog grooming school and do something I really enjoy (if I don't screw it up).

Praying that you can find something you like doing, and if you ever need to help with finding something or whatever, I'm always here! Your health comes first over anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life is just so depressing and I know that it can be awful when things just get worse. I understand that it can be hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[lili]

I'm sorry your going through this.

Do you have some money to spare in your savings? Could you try to apply for other jobs and live off your savings in the meantime?

This is such a stressful part about adulthood. I get really devastated by having a job but then not having one. Interviews for jobs are so overwhelming too. It takes so many rejections to get a job and it can feel very hopeless and intense the whole thing. And I don't have people skills and hate having to then self promote constantly when i already have a low self esteem. I'm not sure what to promote about myself.

I lost my job recently, and I have a job interview next week. And some speculations of a possible new one that starts in May. But obviously this is not guaranteed.
I feel like I'm not looking forward to work in general. But I have to get money at some point so I can finally move out of my housing situation. And be able to be self sufficient.

Feel free to message me if you want to talk more about it.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Looking for a job sucks unless you have strong connections. It is not your fault. Good luck

I guess I will keep trying. Thank you :)

I agree that you really don't deserve this and I hope that things can improve somehow, even if not immediately. I wish I could think of better words now but can't seem to. You shouldn't have to give up your mental health for a job. I'm sorry life has been so hard and painful for you, I truly hope things can improve and you can find happiness since you deserve it.

Thank you for your support, as always

I'm so sorry. It's really frustrating when you're in a crappy position, then you see a light at the end of the tunnel and it just disappears. It sucks and it makes it hard to keep going.

I really hope things turn around and you can get away from this job. I was working at places I constantly hated and I left. Now I'm about to go to a dog grooming school and do something I really enjoy (if I don't screw it up).

Praying that you can find something you like doing, and if you ever need to help with finding something or whatever, I'm always here! Your health comes first over anything.

So true :) Thank you for your kind words. You're absolute right. I'll keep trying.

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life is just so depressing and I know that it can be awful when things just get worse. I understand that it can be hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thank you

I'm sorry your going through this.

Do you have some money to spare in your savings? Could you try to apply for other jobs and live off your savings in the meantime?

This is such a stressful part about adulthood. I get really devastated by having a job but then not having one. Interviews for jobs are so overwhelming too. It takes so many rejections to get a job and it can feel very hopeless and intense the whole thing. And I don't have people skills and hate having to then self promote constantly when i already have a low self esteem. I'm not sure what to promote about myself.

I lost my job recently, and I have a job interview next week. And some speculations of a possible new one that starts in May. But obviously this is not guaranteed.
I feel like I'm not looking forward to work in general. But I have to get money at some point so I can finally move out of my housing situation. And be able to be self sufficient.

Feel free to message me if you want to talk more about it.

I already only have money for this month because last month I didn't work so this month I really have to get back to work. I have to keep try. I hope the interviews go well for you :)