nooneyouknow
sleep deprived
- Jul 17, 2024
- 41
I don't know what I'm doing and it's all so stressful and bad and too much I'm so tired why didn't I do it when I had the chance I can't breathe anymore, I can't breathe. I don't have my social security card, I have no idea how to get a new one I need it to do most of what I wanna do, it's not even my fault it's gone, my mom kept it with her all times and then suddenly someone steals it and it's my fault and I've had no help in getting a new one, I don't have a car I don't have a job I'm in a major I don't like and thinking of switching but everythings expensive and I can't do anything and I can't breathe and even if I switch I'm gonna still being making piss poor money and if I'm switching I need to switch now I need to do it now I need to do everything now and I go back to college soon and I don't wanna do it I'm so tired my room can't stay clean and I'm so over this all holy fucking shit I'm so fucking over it I just want my mom, I just want my mom it wasn't supposed to go like this at all I'm sorry. I wasn't supposed to make it this far I'm sorry I wanted to go but I didn't and I know my friend would be broken beyond belief if I left and I can't do that to her I love her too much I couldn't put her through it, every time I get close I just can't. but I just wanna go and maybe one day it'll get better but I haven't known peace since getting here on this god forsaken place I hate it I'm tired i.am.so tired and I just want my mom. why did it have to go this way it wasn't supposed to go this way
