Fuck it.

[RealLostSoul]

Okay so I think I'ma quit. A few weeks ago I was still hopeful but things just get worse and worse. Literally nothing turns to a better. I lost the girl of my dreams. Lost my sanity. Lost university (dropped out). Lost everything. I don't want to run no more and search something with that I can "start all over again". Fuck it. I want to end it in December when my parents aren't home due to a trip to India or whatever. Anyone has knowledge of dying to carbon monoxide via charcoal? My plan is to buy gas isolating duct tape and barricade myself in the bathtub + use charcoal. How safe will this shit be? I am pretty sure no one will check on me in that time of 2 weeks. How long does it take to send me to Walhalla?
I am currently already visiting family members and friends for the last time. Writing some notes etc. The thing is, I hate life. I hate living. I hate Earth. I hate people. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate my past. I hate my present. I hate my future. I hate my daily routine. I hate my mental disease.
I feel sorry for my parents and shit because they be losing their only child but shit is what it is. I am stuck like Spongebob at the bus stop but there ain't ever coming a bus for me. It's a prison but I want to quit it. Fuck it.

 

[Rachel74]

Get some antidepressants down your neck then evaluate how you feel!

 

[RealLostSoul]

Get some antidepressants down your neck then evaluate how you feel!

Nah bro did that shit already. Tried 6 different ones or so. Was always shit (mostly only side effects and stuff)

 

[littlelady774]

I was planning to go with CO one time because my parents were going on a trip too and I'd be home alone.
I chickened out at the last minute though.
CO is tricky. There is too much room for failure, and if you do fail, there is a risk of brain damage.

Personally, I would go for SN. It's less set up, you drink it, and wait. It's "relatively peaceful". Whatever that means.
Also, if you fail, there is supposedly no risk of brain damage.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Also, if you fail, there is supposedly no risk of brain damage.

I keep hearing that too but I don't know how that makes sense. The method kills you by depriving you of oxygen.

 

[*KNAZ*]

I keep hearing that too but I don't know how that makes sense. The method kills you by depriving you of oxygen.

If you take too low of a dose it's reversible. High enough dose and congrats you have successfully CTB. There is a whole mega thread on it. The first post has all the info. Was helpful for me.