Fuck it, ready to ctb tonight

[BurningLights]

I'm done guys, I've been bouncing around for too long, the universe has always seemed to get in the way, when I think I'm gonna do it, something comes up, there's still for it to intervene. Bit not long, I don't know how many of you will recognise/ remember me, but I've gone through hell with benzo withdrawal, alcohol being the worst enemy for this, I can't CTB sober, so drink is the way to go, and I know that once of have a drink, I'm fucked, no turning back. So Igor my glass and vodka out. Gonna pour a drink, then wait 1minite to see if the universe I'd gonna intervene. If not, down the hatch, then it's gonna be a long way down the rabbit hole, eventually ending in partial suspension.

I had so much planned out to do, bit fuck it, I've damaged myself for the last time (binge eating disorder). Will write a note as I drink. Listen to some music, then when im ready, head in the rope.

You guys are all fucking awesome, I've enjoyed it here (when I've been here like)

I don't really know what else to say.... As soon as this is posted I'll pour the drink and start the timer. Let's go...

 

[BurningLights]

Any ideas on what I need to do before our go, my minds going too quick to think.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Good luck, BurningLights! I hope you find your peace.

 

[BurningLights]

Good luck, BurningLights! I hope you find your peace.

Thanks man, my minutes up, gonna down this first drink.

 

[BurningLights]

Gonna start writing my note, first drink was good, cherry tango masked the vodka. (Thankfully)

 

[BurningLights]

Wish I could talk to a certain person that was on here, but haven't heard from them I a while :( feeling lonely..

 

[Jerryman]

You missing soon4me? Not heard from her in a while. I enjoyed reading her posts.

Were you originaly given benzos to help give up alcohol?

 

[TiredHorse]

Safe travels, BurningLights. May you find peace at the end of them.

 

[BurningLights]

You missing soon4me? Not heard from her in a while. I enjoyed reading her posts.

Were you originaly given benzos to help give up alcohol?

Yes missing soon4me, I wish I could say farewell but, hey ho.
Originally self medicated, and abused. Then got arrested, cold turkied a 100 mg Valium habit.

Then went on to help with alcohol, I think that just made things worse. Then abused the shit out of rc benzos then come off them bit I've been fucked for over a year now.

 

[BurningLights]

Safe travels, BurningLights. May you find peace at the end of them.

Thank you, IF there is something after this, I will see my brother, that will be all I need at the end

 

[skitliv]

Good luck man, I lways enjoyed your posts

 

[chapternate]

Good luck, man.
Try not to get too drunk before in case something goes wrong when you try to rope. I hope you find peace.

 

[BurningLights]

Good luck man, I lways enjoyed your posts

Thanks skitliv! Your one of the ones I met when I first joined remember you fondly :) much love <3

 

[BurningLights]

Good luck, man.
Try not to get too drunk before in case something goes wrong when you try to rope. I hope you find peace.

Thank you mu friend, fair point, better slow down!

 

[BurningLights]

Gonna sort some stuff out then will be back

 

[Jerryman]

Enjoyed your posts. Don't want you to go but at the same time wish you eternal peace.

 

[Sweden]

I hope you find your peace

 

[BurningLights]

Enjoyed your posts. Don't want you to go but at the same time wish you eternal peace.

Thanks jerryman, I really appreciate, I'm sorry to leave this planet, but I will happy once I finally see my brother again, and this suffering had ended. How does it go? Don't cry in sadness that I have gone. Cry tears of joy that I am finally at peace.

 

[Lra888]

Good luck to you. I'll miss seeing you on here but very happy that you will finally be free from all of this pain we deal with.

 

[BurningLights]

Good luck to you. I'll miss seeing you on here but very happy that you will finally be free from all of this pain we deal with.

Damn lra this one hit me, I remember you, I will miss you dearly, I will miss you dearly, to have people on the same wave length is a blessing

 

[scales]

I didn't know you well but I wish you luck and peace.

 

[BurningLights]

I didn't know you well but I wish you luck and peace.

Thank you scales,such love to you

 

[ouvreyes]

Peace, man. Good luck.

 

[BurningLights]

Peace, man. Good luck.

Cheers man, I hope you it all works for you, no matter what you decide

 

[BurningLights]

Peace, man. Good luck.

Cheers man, I hope you it all works for you, no matter what you decide

 

[Anyara]

Good luck and safe travels.
I hope you and your Brother find eachother soon and have your happy ever after in a way..

 

[Circles]

May the other side treat you more kindly mate and wash all your worries away.

 

[Retched]

Hoping you find the peace you seek.

 

[starcrossedfate]

Safe travels, BurningLights.

 

[Donna]

Find Peace....I didn't know you but find peace..