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wandering
- Mar 1, 2023
- 34
im just a fucking monster. im no better than the people that hurt me. people hurt me and i try to be good i try to grow past it i try to be the better person but sometimes the weight is too much and i want to hurt them back. i want to fucking ruin the lives of people who hurt me i want them to suffer even a fraction of what i have felt and that makes me no fucking better than them. im so fucking tired all the time, my mind is exhausting, i go from feeling like a god complex to hating myself more than anything. i just wish i could hold my breath and just stop breathing and die. i juust wanna lay here til i fucking fade away. fuck my bpd, fuck my brain, fuck my life and everything thats happened to me, its all been such a fucking waste. im a waste.