Iamamistake
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- Jun 2, 2020
- 35
I'm so empty that i don't know what to feel and need to rant off.
I'm nineteen and frustrated about being financially dependent on my parents, who have been physically and emotionally abusive to me. For seventeen years, I used to convince myself that I'll only have to bear living with them until I turn eighteen and then I will be at hostel to get rid of suicidal ideation. But lockdown started when I was supposed to go and college I took admission in hasn't opened yet (doesn't seem like will open for several months).
I ordered SN yesterday on cash on delivery, and that was the only thing making me happy and excited. I used my personal phone number and e-mail ID my parents don't know about, despite all precautions I tried taking they somehow figured it out and cancelled my SN order.
They aren't exactly respectable of my privacy and my guess is that's how they found out, I'm unable to think of any other way.
I thought of ordering SN from another place but it doesn't have COD option and i can't pay in any other way.
Every moment I live is a moment I suffer and now I don't even have option of making a choice.
I just needed to say this somewhere Ig.
I'm nineteen and frustrated about being financially dependent on my parents, who have been physically and emotionally abusive to me. For seventeen years, I used to convince myself that I'll only have to bear living with them until I turn eighteen and then I will be at hostel to get rid of suicidal ideation. But lockdown started when I was supposed to go and college I took admission in hasn't opened yet (doesn't seem like will open for several months).
I ordered SN yesterday on cash on delivery, and that was the only thing making me happy and excited. I used my personal phone number and e-mail ID my parents don't know about, despite all precautions I tried taking they somehow figured it out and cancelled my SN order.
They aren't exactly respectable of my privacy and my guess is that's how they found out, I'm unable to think of any other way.
I thought of ordering SN from another place but it doesn't have COD option and i can't pay in any other way.
Every moment I live is a moment I suffer and now I don't even have option of making a choice.
I just needed to say this somewhere Ig.
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