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FsMama

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May 5, 2022
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I feel like my time to ctb is closing in on me real real fast. I don't want to set a date, SI will kick in.
The first time I attempted it was so impulsive and it wasn't even a bad day. I just want to do it and not think about it.

I've said my goodbyes without it being obvious. I feel such over whelming love for my friends, family and even the things I own. The only way I can describe it is like I'm moving to a new country, it's bittersweet but I'm happy to be leaving.

I know I'll be causing a lot of hurt and I wish I could apologize. I don't think I can post a goodbye thread. It might make me reach out for help. I wish I could tell you all how it feels but I think it's best I do it alone. I don't want to be helped anymore.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. This life is so cruel and unfair. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find peace.
 
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Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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I can certainly relate to not wanting help anymore, leaving loved ones/ things , saying goodbyes . This life we live in can be Such a vicious cycle of constant bullshit, it's Insane.

I wish you the best,. Take care.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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You know, if you want, you can write a goodbye post here on SS and have it post after you ctb. If that would make things easier for you.
 
Capsaicin78

Capsaicin78

Full time failure
May 4, 2022
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I feel like my time to ctb is closing in on me real real fast.
I feel exactly like that. For myself I already decided long ago I wanna ctb. I just never found a method that entirely kills my fear of becoming a vegetable.
 
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